Pains of living with Dog

So, after reading the title and the subtitle I am pretty sure that an image of me as a cruel dog owner has been created, but believe me, I am not.

How it all started?

As a child I was always fond of dogs because of my father, he also really loved them, so I think that the trait has been inherited by me, and I have always longed for a personal dog, until March 2018.

My dad brought a German shepherd puppy at home, and seriously you can't even imagine how happy was I.

I ensure her full safety as if she were a vault filled with gold.

I shared everything with her, and I always wanted to be an ideal owner who doesn't let his hurt a little bit.

But, opposite to that part of my personality, I am really a lazy person, whose ass is seriously addicted to the sofa, I don't do a single task when I don't feel like doing it and just keep laying on the bed for the whole day.

However, due to the early days of motivation for having a dog, I took her out every morning and evening and even shared everything I used to eat, from small chocolates to big cakes.

Outcomes of which I now have to face.

Now as a lazy person sometimes I don't want to leave my bed, but then Vinny(her name) comes with such a kind face;

She sits for some time in front of me, and as a result of living with her for a long time, I can easily read her eye language.

"I want to go outside" are the words coming from her eyes.

On the other side, I don't want to leave my bed, so in order to avoid her emotional attacks, I move my head in the opposite direction.

As a result of which she again comes and sits in front of my face.

After some minutes of avoiding eye contact with her, she starts making those strange noises like she is crying, with her closed mouth, now due to this noise an inner voice comes from my heart saying;

"You wanted to be an ideal owner, you always wanted to keep her happy then why are you not hearing her wish", To which my lazy self use to reply "She always makes a sound like this when she wants to go outside"

"But after 8-10 years there will be no one asking you to go out", the voice answered.

Now upon hearing this, every dog owner knows what they will do, and due to which I leave my bed with so much pain for taking her out.

And this always happens to me, and due to this even when I am having close deadlines I have to leave all that tasks and go out with her.

If this was for 2 ot 3 times a day, then also I could have handled it without complaining, but as a German sherpherd, she needs more excercise which really is a problem.

But then also, her cute face is a heart killer, and such thoughts like I will be alone after her, makes me obey her orders every time.

Initially, it freaks me out when she breaks my sleep and makes me get out of my bed, but after seeing her happiness of going for a walk with me, I realise that all she asks for is just a small outing.

Which then makes me murder my anger internally without showing it to anyone.

And like this;

The anger arises and then falls as always.

Seriously it's a real pain but at the same time, it's a sweet pain too.