The friend's death

I still remember his facial charm and how he looked like, how he used to speak.

It was like a usual day, I was in a hurry to eat my breakfast, so I prayed to god and as usual, and said "Thank god for giving me such a beautiful life", then I went and grabbed some snacks for breakfast.

I was in a chill mood, as I am the less stress-taking type of person, I started to eat my snack, then I heard my dad coming in from the night shift, he came and started undressing his police uniform for wearing the civil ones.

Dad then looked at me and said "Son, today an 18-year-old teenager got electric shock by high-tension railway wires, the sound of the blast was so loud that it was even heard in our control room", hearing this I replied "well dad, I don't know why do the teens nowadays are committing suicide" in a chilled mood. I said so because my dad works in railways and I often used to hear such things like a teen jumped in front of a train etc.

Then he went out for a light walk and I also continued eating my snacks, the exams were coming soon, so I went to prepare for it at my desk, then at somewhat 11:00 AM. I lay on the bed in our study room for some rest.

My brother was on PC, which was next to the bed as he was having his Computer Science exam the next day.

While I was scrolling through Instagram while thinking, how can I make money, how can I learn art, and how can I prepare for exams?

Right then, my brother got a call from his best friend, I don't know what he said to my brother, but the next moment I heard my brother saying, " but how, are you kidding me, where" after some time he said," okay I am coming wait there", after which he looked at me and said " You know David, my classmate. His younger brother has died", hearing this I said "but how", to which he didn't reply and went right away with the bike.

My parents also, asked him, and he answered the same thing, I then thought that Sam, his little brother and I are classmates, and has he died? I was thinking this, when my father called me and said, " Son, this was the teenager I was talking about in the morning", I then said, "Ohh!! c'mon dad it can't be him".

After this, my dad opened the railway's official message group in which the reports are submitted, he opened the report and started reading.

My heart was pumping, as I was still believing that it can't be him. But right after this, I heard the words from my dad's mouth," The boy who got the electric shock from the high-tension wire is Sam, age 18-years", I got into trauma, I was unable to believe that he had died, my dad then showed me the images which were shot by the official on-site.

I still can't believe that he had died, I mean c'mon how can this happen, though he was not such a close friend of mine, as we were promoted to 11th grade our sections were combined for we both took science stream, he chose Bio and I chose Maths, and I remembered my talk with him, "Hey Sam, make sure you show me your biology textbook in 12th grade, I want to see the images of that reproduction chapter.", to which he replied, " yeah why not".

But now was me thinking that how even in the world can this happen, has he died, till now I had only watched someone dying in the movies, and when someone used to ask me that what do you think about death, I simply use to say, "everyone has their own time, and we all have to die, so, there's no point in crying and being sad about it", but now at this point all that resolve was nowhere, I didn't even know how can I handle it and how should I react to it.

At somewhat 2:00 AM my brother came in.

After some time he exclaimed his feeling and what he saw in the crematorium, It was his first time in the crematorium, and I was hearing all this with a heart of mine, which haven't seen the gates of the crematorium yet.

He said, "Sam's body was completely burned-out, his skin was like a dried layer of paint, wanting to come out from the wall(body), when I asked David, how this all happen he said that they were on their way to the gym, whose short way goes through the tracks and a train was standing on the tracks, David and his friends went on the other side by crossing the train from below, but, Sam got behind, and he might have thought that climbing the train, might save time, and when he climbed the train, he might have forgotten that there were high-tension wires above him, and he stood over the train without knowing about them, and his neck got into the contact of one wire, after which a strong explosion sound came, and when David and his friends looked back, they saw Sam's burned-out body falling from the train."

My brother then said, "David was crying and was feeling guilty for leaving his brother back, if only he had not brought his brother with him today at the gym, if only he had stopped his brother to not climbing the train, Sam might be alive today."

I mean the age at which one checks their birth certificates, for any faults in them, Sam, was going to have the death certificate. I can't even believe that this all happened in one day, I mean is the existence of humans so small?, he died in the morning, and right now when I am writing this, his dead body has been mixed into the five elements of earth.

I still can't believe that he has died, has he died? or this is just my nightmare, won't he return, is dying that easy.

I still can't muster up the courage to make my resolve for this.

Now, I am thinking that, what is the meaning of all these exams, this money thing and this all worries, Sam was having exams and now, he is not even in this world, how in the world can this happen?

Just thinking about, what his family might be going through right now, gives me the goosebumps, his brother David, who had given the fire to Sam's dead body, how is he feeling, what might be his thoughts.

His parents who were dreaming about their son's bright future, now have his ashes with them, I mean how will they be able to eat the food and how will the one blank seat at the dining table feel today.

Really after hearing and thinking this, I wasn't able to study the whole day, I am lacking the resolve to move forward and study, I mean what is the meaning of all this huh!!

Seriously, life is too small and I don't think there is any point in living it gloomily.

Oh! God please grant rest and calmness to Sam's soul, and thanks, for giving me such a beautiful life, I will give my best to complete the task for which you have sent me.