You Lack Nothing.

Do you feel like you lack in your life?

This is an interesting question because, for years, I always thought that I lacked something in my life. It didn't matter how big or small it was, and I knew that I lacked everything because of someone else. I didn't know that I had the power to control many things, but when you are a child, you don't know all of this stuff. You have to depend on the adult in the situation and hope that they tell you the truth about things in this world. Being that I come from a traumatic childhood, it is no wonder that I struggled and suffered long years of not measuring up to the world's standards. Please don't assume that it's my fault that I was a victim but let the adults tell it to me. It is my fault because I exist. I lacked self-esteem, self-love, encouragement, motivation, and positivity.

What can you do to change the parts of your life that you feel you lack right now?

I know this was the hardest thing for me to do because, for years, I thought that because I lacked everything, then I was indeed nothing. I found out later that this was not true at all. I had to start with my mindset about many lies, deception, physical and mental abuse. The trauma that an adult can put onto a child is real, and it is a life long journey of healing. This type of healing does not happen overnight. You have to find the right people who can understand where you are coming from and relate to you. I have never liked going to a psychiatrist because all they ever did was sit there and listen; they never gave me many tools to help me heal myself.

When I became an adult, I wanted to go to college, but I knew that I lacked the skills to get started on the right track to give myself the higher education that I knew I needed at the time. When I finally did go to college, I majored in Business Management and Science at first, and then I switched gears and said to myself, I am going to try psychology out and see what happens. I didn't want to do this for anyone else but myself. I felt like if I ever got this degree, then I would be able to heal myself first mentally and help heal other children that suffered a past like mines. To my surprise, I actually enjoyed the classes and gained more knowledge than I thought possible with my mental limitations.

Do you have the courage and mental mindset to stay focused and make the changes you need for success?

Now that learning the things that I know now was worth all the mental bull shit that I endured. I will not lie and say that this journey was comfortable because it was not, and it still is not easy. Even though I have finished the courses, it is still an uphill battle every day. Keeping my mental in check is more to me than many of the other things that are out here in this world.

My thoughts:

To all of the abusers out there, if you think that we victims will continue to stay silent and let you continue to destroy innocent's lives, you are wrong. We are going to speak out and fight back with everything good in us. You think you have stolen our voice, but no, you actually gave us victims more reasons than ever before to fight back twice as hard and twice as fast.

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