Writers Block

I started this blog with intentions to write about hard issues, to attack the things that we ignore as a society and to spread truth through knowledge and love. However, I’ve been struggling with getting my thoughts together. It’s not because I don’t want to write or because I have nothing to say. I have so much to say, I really just need to stop overthinking shit. I’ll have one million ideas ready then I somehow overthink my way out of it. Maybe it’s fear of judgement, fear of self doubt or maybe I’m just being plain lazy. Either way none of those things will get me anywhere with this blog or anywhere else in life. And if you’re like me or if any of those things fit into your life in one way or another; STOP. Life is too short to worry about the what if’s or to not do what we love and I love writing. It’s therapy for me, I learn, I understand through writing. It’s a big part of me, always has been always will be. I just want to share it with the world in a way that causes people to think deeper, challenge themselves, learn themselves, love themselves and to just be. When I don’t allow myself to reach the creative heights that I know I am capable of; I am hindering my personal growth, confining my art and telling my gifts to lay beneath the surface. That is no way to be. This is a world wide issue. The worrying, the anxiety before even trying. The worse thing that could happen is it doesn’t work out the way you intended but the beauty in that is that it works out anyway. Maybe not that way but in some form.

I don’t mean to rant and maybe this doesn’t seem like what this post should have been about but honestly who gives a fuck? It’s like coloring in the lines, we were taught to but does it really make the paintings/pictures more beautiful ? Should art be confined ? Should you be confined ? Should I ? The simple answer no. The more complex answer, still no. Just be. That’s some of the best advice that I’ve received and I hope you’ll be with me on my journey to just being myself, as I’ll be with you on yours.

The past couple of months have been so trying for me. Not knowing what’s next. Where I would sleep, where or what I would eat with my son and through it all I’ve learned so much. Resilience is beautiful. No excuses for not blogging though and things are much better now and I no longer have those worries but think about it. Something is always going to happen that is out of our control and we can either go through it or let it go through us. Please don’t let that go over your heads. We can either choose to allow the universe to teach us or we can make it harder by resisting. During my transition I’ve realized that some things just have to happen, for other things to come to past. For ears and eyes to be opened and it’s so hard but for me I’m stronger and it makes me more open to sharing. Love, light, whatever I have to help someone else.

So that’s it. A big fucking issue or issues. Self hindrance, self doubt, resisting growth. And over thinking for no fucking reason at all. So beyond all of those things that used to hold me back, I’m looking forward to expressing myself here. Outside of my notebook for others to see.

My good friend just told me to look around me and write from there. She’s right. It’s that simple. There are so many things to discuss. Until next time. Peace.