With Every Step I take

I am feeling good overall. Trying to have patience and take things one step at a time. Learning new habits is a work in progress. Real life is what I live for to stick it to my music. Lost in confusion, dancing through the ruins. Trying to survive but this is all I need. Tired of running in circles, facing a strife. Stumbling through life, facing battles of failure. I want to survive in this giant life. These days are hard so I get what I deserve. I want to get past the price on my own and then it must be fixed.And with all the stress we have mixed the more things I have missed. I want to remember how it felt to be alive. This weight on my shoulders feels like a suture. I appreciate the support I have around me because without family I would be up a creek without a paddle. Sometimes, I don’t feel the ground underneath my feet. Every twist and turn leaves me trapped in my mind. I am tangled in choices. I am caught in a loop where hope struggles to flee. Past mistakes are water under the bridge. Frustration shadows dreams, leaving hope hopelessly fixed. I need to stay positive and move forward with my goals. I'm trying to stay focused on what I could be. I’m trying to get a break. I gotta get away from the fakes and not be taken advantage of. I need to know who stands on the wrong side of my list. I want to know who is right in this world of lies. I need to get it together and do whatever it takes. I want to change my ways. Every chance that fades, I need to focus on my future. I need to focus on my strength not the negative. I need to know that I can do this my own way before I risk. This new life that we abuse is what we like and we could learn to get fixed. I want to get rid of all the guilt that has been mixed. I want to forget this pain that has been caused and leave it all behind. I want to let go of what has been done and made to mend. I want to see the world in a different light. I want to live in truth and find new meaning in my life. I want to believe that things will turn out fine if I take one step at a time. Watching dreams dissolve like sand, slipping through the grime. I wish I could rewind and have the strength to move forward. Every twist and turn feels like I’m just moving backward. They say there are no answers. But I will solve these questions and I will find the answers. This is the only life I know. Whats done is done and I will find my way. I was never meant to be alone. Yet here I stand, lost in shadows of tomorrow. Chasing echoes of hope, drowning in the sorrow. I cry myself to sleep. In this maze of doubts I am feeling weak. Summoned by the gods above. I hear my prayer until my voice is out of reach. Searching for a path that leads me to love. Solitude is what I seek. In a world so loud, I crave a moment of peace. Yearning for a brightness that never cease. I came to restore my strength to the guidance within. To find a way to return to the source of life. Trying to break through walls that keep me pinned.