Week One

Sometimes, mental breakdowns are mental breakthroughs. This week, I realized that I wasn’t happy with my life. I wasn’t happy with the fact that I wasn’t going in the direction that I wanted my life to go. I wasn’t being bold enough and I wasn’t being strong enough to put myself out there to get myself where I wanted to be. So, I decided that I was going to start being bold and strong and start creating the life that I wanted to create.

To be honest with you all, I was and still am having a hard time with negative self-talk. Every time something minorly inconvenient would occur, I would talk negatively to myself. I tell myself that I’m worthless and that I’m not good enough to get where I want to be. That in itself was keeping me from being bold enough and strong enough to get to where I want to be. So, how will I get where I want to be?

I created a plan to get where I want to be. I’m going to talk about what I’m doing every week to get to my goals for the next six months. This is week one. So, what did I do this week to get to where I want to be?

This week, I began countering my negative self-talk with positive affirmations for myself. For example, if I told myself I was incapable of getting where I want to be, I would counter it by saying that I was capable of getting where I want to be. I also began to sell my clothes on Instagram in order to meet my financial goals as well. Within the next year, I want to have enough tuition for the next two years. I’m halfway there and I can get there in the next year if I put my mind to it.

Adding to that, I’m working on comparing myself to others by unfollowing people on social media that make me compare my life or my body to theirs. I’m also working on minimizing how much I practice bad habits such as self-sabotaging my efforts to move forward in my life. For example, I kept talking to someone that I felt was holding me back and was toxic towards me instead of blocking them and cutting them out of my life. So, instead of giving the people that are hurting me my time, I’m just going to cut them off after a few red flags are brought to my attention.

I’ve also been a bit down on myself about the way my body looks the past month or so as well. So, I created a plan which doesn’t include restricting myself like I used to do in order to meet my physical goals. I plan on exercising for at least 30 minutes four times a week for the next two months to see how I feel. I also created a plan that takes 30 minutes each morning so that I don’t half-a** it in the morning.

I also have a few goals for a few projects that I have that will probably take a little longer than a few weeks to get started. For example, I wrote a book and I plan on publishing it on Amazon. To do this, I need a book cover so I have to meet with a friend of mine who’s a graphic designer that is working on getting my cover done to see how it’s coming along. Then I just need to slap a cover on the book and publish it as an ebook on Amazon Kindle.

Finally, I will be talking about what I’ve been doing each week that makes me happy. It could be as little as spending time with family or beating a personal goal during my workout, but I think it would be a good idea for me to keep doing something that makes me happy each week. With the grueling schedule of going to college full time while also working a job and trying to accomplish my personal goals, it can be hard to find joy in the mundane. So, adding little things like burning my favorite candle or watching a funny of video on Youtube can really help me out.

So, for the next six months, I will be documenting how I’m accomplishing my mental, physical, and financial goals, as well as the things that make me happy each week. I hope you stick around for the journey.

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