Truly Obsessed

The day when I learned what self love actually was!!

On Sunday, when I was just walking around my house where people have installed their stalls for selling different goods like chocolate , accessories, clothes and so on. I went to one of the stall, where they were actually offering rides on cars. So, I brought the ticket from the counter and waited for my turn.

When my turn came, a boy sitting inside the car waved at me and said jump in. I sat in car and he drifted the car so smoothly. I fell in love with that. Then, we started to talk about the random things and exchanged our social media accounts.

We started to talk and he used to send me his videos. And I was like why is this boy so obsessed with himself ? Doesn't he have any work ? Why is he sending me his videos when I didn't ask him for it? At that point of time I actually felt that thing cringe.

But now, I have realized how important it is for an individual to love themselves first. Then I thought, He was promoting himself when I was just being insecure about myself. He knew something that I took years to know. He was deeply in love with his own being.

When I was going through my downfall, when nobody was there for me, I starting being there for myself. I started lifting my self up. I realized that being alone is actually fun. You get to do whatever you want to and explore everything and nobody is going to judge you and even if they do who cares. I found my inner self.

I learned to value my self and moved on from every single place where my presence was not valued. I stopped caring about others cause that's my life anyway. Today, I am obsessed with myself. I feel I am complete and I don't need anybody unless He is the one chosen by God for me. I started working on myself and chasing my dreams when I got to know that nobody cares about us. Today they might laugh at us but tomorrow they are going to be jealous of us.

Self love is something indeed beautiful. When you love in mirror you might be like my forehead is so big, my noose so weird and talk about other insecurities. But when you start figuring things out for yourself and starting loving yourself then you will be like I am actually beautiful. I might have Flaws but I am all by myself and deeply falling for myself.

I starting travelling and I felt more happier when i got to spend time with nature. The birds melody, the smell of soil, the freezing air all felt so close to me. The green garden when I could smell the flowers and run like a child became my favorite. I didn't any pressure to be cool there I was just being me.

I got to see the part of me which was hidden from the world. May be because I was afraid that people might take advantage of me. The best of being alive was to truly engage in finding out who I actually was, and what was my purpose and my likes and dislikes. I became what I always pictured of.

Then, I started feeling confident about how I look, how I dress up and how I represented my self. I starting forgiving myself for my mistakes and started learning from them. I became just like a bird who could fly high with freedom. No more setbacks only growth. That's my story and I love every chapter of that.

NOBODY COULD GIVE ME THE LOVE THAT I GAVE MYSELF..

So, Be obsessed!! And find what actually gives you freedom and peace.