The Wounded Healer

To begin my story, more so my journey I'll tell you my name.. Keeanna Marshaye, currently flowing with Mars... like the planet.

Identifying myself as the "Wounded Healer" - why ? Well because this life has left me wounded, broken and bleeding... Yet I still push through to heal myself and others.

Helping and healing others well that's bound to bring on some mental strain and damage, yet I still do so. Simply because I will not allow for others to suffer. Yes I suffer, yes I am broken, wounded, and bleeding... But that person is no longer going through that pain.

I would die a thousand times for any person just for them to see the light that shines bright within them. Selfless? No, I just know what it feels like to be trapped in the darkness.

I've been consumed by the darkness more than once in my life, it's a never ending cycle of removing and releasing to getting trapped and set free once more. What can I do about it? - I let it flow through me, it won't last forever.

I am the light but I am also the dark. If I remind myself then I am also able to shine it the dark, it was born within me. A big flame, a big spark.

Forget me not, I tell all that I meet. Even the ones that I have yet to properly greet.

You see my pain is my pain, and your pain is yours. I'm convinced if I add yours to mine, you'll have peace of mind.

If you know someone is suffering how can you let them slip by? How you let them go off into the night. See I understand how hard it is to fight, I'll be the one to take the pain and release it into the wind.

There's something different about me and my heart. When it gets too worn out it will just restart. Most people wouldn't be able to handle a heart like mine. That's why it's currently mine.

I am a "Wounded Healer"

Healing all that I meet, you'll feel the lift as soon as we meet. There may be a huge shift. You'll soon notice all of my gifts, you will believe that I am your one true wish.

There are others in this realm just like me, there are other's who have this type of ability. We are the ones that can handle the agility.

"Can you set me free?" I can, only if you believe.

Daily I try to run from my mind, though I am unsure on the reasoning of me running. I cannot continue to run from me, I don't know what will meet me if I choose to embrace the dark corners. But I am ready, ready to be free... even if it means meeting the darkest version of me.

If I don't accept me how can I expect others to accept me, we are all reflections of each other. When I'm not accepted by others, I'm not accepted by myself. When I am wronged by others, it's because I have wronged myself.

The feelings of releasing the pain, the tears, fears, losses, gains, all of it. Letting go may not be easier than holding on, holding on brings a lot more pain. Pain is the reason we change, yet to some extent we cause our pain unknowingly.

How deep can we go into our minds? What are we able to uncover other than the hidden traumas and locked away pain caused by others. By diving deep will I discover the powers that were suddenly ripped away from me. Do you think I'm crazy for believing I have powers, do you think it's a complex that was simply created because I may be overly damaged?

How can I still be damaged if I've been trying to focus on my healing process? Got me wondering... Is the healing process even real? See because how can you keep healing just to hurt, especially when it's out of my control.

The wounded healer - hurt but still trying to heal herself and others.

This world isn't real, it's what you make it. I want to make it fit for me, am I even for me? If not for me then who... Philosophy or nonsense, you tell me.

Why do others fake it? when they are suffering and not happy at all. Leaving people like us - ones able to express thyself looking ridiculous. To the ones that cry you are real. To the ones showing no emotion, you are fake.

It's okay to cry, not okay to lie. Let them out, don't hide.

Forget me not, forget me not. I will not be forgotten, in the end I will be rising and not falling.

Now where do I go? I'm waiting for the answer to present itself, if I don't know then will I be stuck? By sitting here am I running out of my luck... It's not even mine to claim, it's all around for all of us. Some don't see it and it's a shame. Then the world is left to blame.

The world has done nothing to me, it was the people not the place.

Why are there ones in the world moving by acting so innocent. I even took part... I am not innocent, I've caused pain and hurt as well. I'm not only filled with light, though I do fight to ensure the dark doesn't take over... But what if one day it does? What will I do and what will that look like. Are the ones around me safe? Am I safe? - I am simply because I say I am.

If it takes over the healing will be for nothing.

Revenge to those that have wronged me will take me nowhere. That's why I believe I am strong because I wake up daily choosing peace over the violence within me.

Ultimate healer is what I'm aiming for, the rest I must let go. The negativity must go