The Unexpected Side Effects I've Experienced From My Healing Journey

We are always healing. Life throws new challenges our way every day and we heal from them, whether we recognize it or not. If you don’t heal your wounds, you’ll basically be the same person for the rest of your life. Healing makes you wiser and stronger in every aspect, but especially spiritually and emotionally.

Mindful healing is a commitment that I chose to make, over a decade ago.

In the past, I had a very bad habit of avoiding my issues at all costs which only resulted in my worries piling up even more. When you try to avoid reality, you’re not addressing the thoughts and emotions that affect you on a deep subconscious level.

I chose to always face my issues head-on instead of running from them like how I used to.

It’s quite an empowering feeling to be able to face your inner demons, but I was not expecting my world to be turned completely upside down.

My Healing Journey

I initially thought that I would become more mature and logical, which did happen, but I wasn’t expecting to be in more pain than I was when I started!

My original intention was to just heal from a breakup and confront all of my hidden emotions however, my childhood trauma and deaths that I thought I moved on from decided to join the party. It was a chain reaction that I did not see coming.

I was a wreck. Truly a mess.

I wasn’t sleeping, wasn’t eating, and barely left the house. I went into depression because of how much pain and despair bubbled up to the surface.

I vividly remember partaking in releasing meditations and not being able to make it through the entire session because I would cry until I almost passed out. What I didn’t know at the time was that crying is a form of healing — a very strong form actually.

When you cry you’re cleansing yourself of all of the negative energy that’s built up inside of you. All of the years of pain I thought I moved on from was finally being brought to light and the only thing I could do about it was cry.

After about six months of being stuck in a funk and actively trying to heal and release all of my past baggage, I started to see the sun again.

I felt freer and genuinely felt like I had a purpose for being alive. Before healing, it was like I was on autopilot and just getting by day after day instead of actually living. These days I live life to the fullest and make sure I take time out of my schedule just for myself to go out in nature and feel grounded.

The Side Effect

I’ve always known I was an empath because I feel very strongly and pick up on the energy of others around me very easily. After healing, my spiritual gifts became even more apparent and my natural healing vibrations were raised. This meant I was now more sensitive than I ever was before.

I thought healing would make me stronger but it actually just made me more susceptible to getting hurt.

When you’re a healer and empath, broken people tend to gravitate towards you because their vibrations recognize that your vibrations are high and have the power to heal them.

I was used time and time again.

Every relationship, every friendship, everyone that passed through my life used me to help them heal and then left. Of course, this hurt me beyond measure but it was a necessary experience for me.

The Lesson

Being used for my healing abilities helped me realize that I have a gift and that I need to protect this gift as much as possible so that no one can abuse it.

I completed the final major step in my healing journey which was setting boundaries.

Despite coming to terms with everything and everyone that caused me pain, deep down I knew that if these people were to walk back into my life I would’ve welcomed them with open arms.

After healing I became more aware of who came into my life, how they impact my life, and how I impact their life.

I was able to recognize who had ill intentions and who actually wanted a real friendship with me by picking up on their energy. As soon as I got the slightest hint of bad vibes from someone, I cut them out of my life.

Even if someone just genuinely wants to be my friend, I make sure to take it slow just to be sure they won’t use me and leave as everyone else did.

I Don’t Regret My Journey

The moral of the story is, yes healing is wonderful and a necessary part of life, but it can also change everything you know and who you are in a very unexpected way. These changes are always for your highest good even if they might not feel like it, so don’t resist them.

Healing will show you the beauty in pain and teach you valuable life lessons that will help shape you as a person.

It’s important to remember that healing isn’t linear. It’s a very bumpy road and it’s meant to be that way. Some days you’ll feel like you’re drowning underwater while other days you’ll feel like you’re back up to the surface gasping for air and being grateful that you’re able to breathe again, even if it’s just for a short moment.

Healing will show you the ugly side of life which will result in you expressing gratitude for what you already have. You’ll gradually learn to be thankful for everything, even the things you take for granted such as being able to wake up and live another day.

If I get the chance to embark on this healing journey again in another lifetime, I would do it in a heartbeat because there’s nothing else that can make you appreciate and understand life as much as pain can.

Sending love, light, and healing energy your way. Good luck on your journey!