The spotlight is mine

Do you know all of the qualities of being a star?

I know what you were going to say! I just knew what was on your mind. Of course, you'd probably think space. What I mean.. what I am saying, Is the battlefield of the entertainment industry.

One must shine more brightly than all the others. Outshining all the rest leaving anyone with the chance to cover up your brilliance. That is how it feels to me. That is how it must be in order to survive.

If your weight isn't up to the standard, just lose more weight in order to be ideal. If your cheekbones, eyes, nose, just the simplest of parts can be taken off and resculpted. Only a little bit more cash can set up your entire future.

How about odd jobs? So long as I make it out, in the end, alive can everything else before me insignificant. It may be cruel to oneself but who told me my dreams were so highly-priced. At least give me a chance.

Producers will move us around like objects on a di0rama. Carefully placing our props, setting up the stage to fit their most passionate ideals. Whoops! one of the figures fell over again, they will be replaced just like the others.

Have you ever been afraid to walk alone at night? After finishing up a long day of interviews, small roles, singing, dancing in front of the camera, there will always be a black shadow or two hovering right behind you.

Boo!

Did I scare you? sorry I couldn't quite make it out of that darkness unscathed, unfortunately. Pity and I just had work done on myself a little while ago. Looks like I need to pay the doctor another visit. Who made me so fascinating, so beautiful.

Being a star, becoming the ideal image of perfection, was never a curse to me. I wanted to live up to the expectations of all who hoped I could be something in my life. If you are remembered, watched, listened to, or even seen just once by those magnetic eyes that are fascinated by you.

It would all be worth it.

Every shred of pain. Every thought of being suffocated from the comments, the talking, the stares when you walk down the sidewalk, anything I found almost biting at my skin as the days passed by, felt like nothing.

When your entire story is set out in the eyes of others, it becomes nerve-wracking. Because of your previous achievements, your family life, friends, and your most beloved person are completely uncovered to the world.

I felt it. I felt so lonely without my day-to-day life existing anymore. But that was okay for me. That only gave me more motivation to reclaim all that I lost before, giving those dear to me a paradise unlike any other.

If you regret the choices you made. Those moments you wish you could've reversed. Remember the memories you created with those who love you. Look up to you, inspire to show their brilliance just like you did.

Remember that not every tunnel at the end of the road is always dark.