The Ramblings Of An Writer

Before the thought of taking pen to paper crossed my mind, I was creating functional worlds with me at the epicentre of it all. These nightly adventures exploring treasure coves and riding dragons, helped me block out the monsters crawling under my bed. And as I became older and began to realise that these monsters did not just hide under my bed, these worlds and adventures become my nightly escape. With time these worlds became more elaborate, the foes became more devious and the mechanics of the worlds became more complex. One winter’s evening after facing some of realities scariest monster’s I had the bright idea of mapping these worlds on paper, in an effort to invite other adventurers to have a realm that they can escape to, whenever reality became too overwhelming to face. My nightly adventures always helped me put my current problems into perspective, these worlds acted as a type of sandbox, allowing me to recreate my problems more vividly, giving me the courage to fight on. I was and still am new to the world of writing, and in the beginning, my mindset was rather naive. Reading blogs on ‘how to become a writer in a year’, and taking part in writing boot camps gave me the impression that to be a writer you would need to write 1000 words a day, do some research have a few good ideas and magically you would create a Wizarding world. This bubble was quickly popped, yes someday those 1000 words quickly fill the lines on my pages, other days the ink refuses to leave the pen. I started to realise that my brain and hand were not on the same page, I battled to print the picture I had in my mind onto paper, everything made sense to me, but once the words I had written down were spoken out in the open the magic was lost.

Somedays the desire to throw away my pen and burn my papers were hard to ignore, but with time I became to realise that each journey is different. What made this process hard was seeing some amateur writers create their worlds with ease, and here’s me taking hours to put two sentences together. But as I said earlier that I needed to learn not to compare trees, just because someone else tree was growing faster, does not mean mine won’t grow at all. (yes I know its a strange analogy, but it was the best way I could make sense of it all hahaha) Another Trap I feel I fell in trying to mimic the voice of other great and successful writers, yes it is good to take tips from experienced writers. But I feel sometimes it is easy to fall into the trap of trying to copy their style and your original and unique voice gets drowned out. I remember this piece of information my mentor once gave me, instead of trying to be the next J.K Rowling or the next Stephen King, I should strive to be the next Abby Wilson

I began to make my own routines and do things my way and slowly that connection between hand and brain became stronger. As I’m new to the world of writing, I’m unsure if this is a ‘me’ problem or there are other writers out there that experience this problem. This why I thought writing this madness down and the method sI am currently exploring to try and reconnect my hand and brain might be somewhat of an inspiration to others. By sharing my ideas with others, I hope that my original dream of sharing these realms of adventure can come to reality.