Riding the Singing Wolf

Hello to those of you who are on the path of transformation in this unbelievably materialistic and judgmental world! You will relate to the feeling of riding blind upon a singing wolf! There is the exhilaration of freedom, yet the fear of falling, the strangeness of the song, and the not knowing where you will end up.

Well I’m here to tell you it’s worth the precarious ride. My current life began when I realized that I had walked myself into, and then kept myself in, a corner for most of my life. The corner felt safe for a long time. It was a place where I thought I was comfortable with a religion, a marriage, and a corporate job, all of which defined me. Gradually I became aware that I was deeply unhappy. I was afraid though of what people would think if I made changes and it took some time for me to get the courage to make changes that would help me.

Through a series of seemingly unrelated experiences I was enabled to free myself from my corner. Many people describe this sort of transition as waking up. I don’t have a better expression, but it was certainly a mind-boggling time to realize that somehow I had arrived at a place where I no longer believed the dogma of my religion, where I was just treading water in my marriage, and where my corporate job had become a place where I was living as one who had lost their mind.

For those of you who are currently experiencing deep dissatisfaction and disillusion, I challenge you to examine the roots of your unhappiness. I encourage you to give yourself permission to think thoughts that may have been unthinkable to you in the past. I Encourage you to do whatever you need to do. Get therapy, take medicine, go camping, start painting, keep a journal, but think and meditate upon your unhappiness and figure it out. Once you get to the roots then you will be able to make decisions to aid yourself.

We are each on our own journey. This is not a platitude. There is no one else in the world just like you. You are special. You vibrate at your own special frequency. I am not encouraging you to take selfish steps or to hurt anyone. I am encouraging you to take responsible action for yourself and to move forward into a more satisfactory existence. An existence that makes sense to you in this current world we are in. A happier you will make a happier world around you.

Over a period of a few years I moved on from my religion to a spiritual path that is deeply satisfying to me. I left my marriage of many years, after much discussion with my spouse. I left my corporate job where I was deeply unhappy (hence the sense of living as one who has lost their mind). Then I packed my car and moved across country.

This took an enormous amount of courage and it was not a sudden decision. I am now living where I want to live and doing what I want to do. I have much less materialistically, but it really isn’t an issue when you’re happy. I have found that choosing happiness for myself involves a practice of gratitude and daily choices to do what I love.

So be encouraged to ride the singing wolf. It’s a powerful transformation!