Rest

I am writing this blog post as I lay in bed with an empty house. Today, everyone is doing their own thing, including myself. The crazy thing, is that I have been being prompted to rest for about a week now. I usually start off really well. I’ll light a candle, take a nice hot shower, eat a healthy but satisfying meal, maybe meditate a little bit, read a book, all that good stuff. All of these things sound peaceful, until I add that as I was lighting the candle, I was also thinking about the 5 errands that I have to run. As I took a shower, I was interrupted three times by my daughter asking me for juice. As I ate my healthy meal, I was scrolling through social media and creating posts to promote my services. As I meditated... well, I was actually pretty relaxed then, but as I read my friends new book, I noticed myself writing notes and making edits with my favorite blue pen. Outside of my 20 minute meditation, I did a whole lot of “resting” that was really just working in disguise. Some of those things, like the shower interruptions, I can’t control, but for the most part, I have got to make adjustments.

Getting to a place of stillness is difficult for me. Especially when I’m being a mother, partner, coach and friend. It often feels like there’s no real time for rest. After all, bills are due and the demands of life are high. However, I also know how truly important it is to rest.

For me, the problem is the constant guilt that I feel whenever I pause or am doing something besides making money. Finding the balance between resting and procrastinating is one that I’ve gotten significantly better at over the years, but I’m now noticing that my mind is rarely ever at peace. That is why I can plan a getaway or spend the majority of the day alone and still feel incredibly drained by the end of it.

My desire is to find true peace and rest. That is why, I have decided to clearly define what rest is to me and make sure that I commit myself to actually resting, at least once a week.

To me, resting is about mental stillness and finding balance between doing and being. It’s not just about taking the time to read a good book, showering, or eating healthy meals, it’s about who I’m being when I’m doing those things.

I am someone who constantly tries to get things perfect, as a result, I either hold myself back from the things I know I should be doing getting myself all worked up and draining my energy or I’m over running all over the place, doing everything which is even more draining.

My goal this week is to find my balance. To make a plan and to stick to it even if I can’t get things done perfectly. Learning to stop the voice in my head that constantly tells me I’m not enough or I’m not doing enough is going to be key to finding rest for me. Not feeling guilty when I don’t do things perfectly or when I’m focusing on my writing or on my home rather than promoting my business is also going to be a game changer. The truth, is that I often feel the push to go, go, go and do, do, do, that I’m when I’m constantly going or doing, I’m not really being the person who can welcome or allow the rewards of my efforts to flow to me, and that’s an important part of the manifestation process. Getting into a state of allowing rather than worrying is the ultimate rest, which makes it the ultimate task, but I’m determined to see it through.

I know from past experiences how beneficial resting can be for me. There have been plenty of times where I would be striving to achieve something and I’d just get burnt out from all of the work, effort and energy I was putting into achieving that goal. However, whenever I stopped striving and forcing myself to produce, ideas and opportunities began to flow to me and I was able accomplish way more from a state of allowing versus constant pushing and doing.

My goal for this upcoming week is to allow.

I am allowing inspired ideas and opportunities to flow to me. I am allowing myself to be at peace in my mind and to find rest. I am allowing myself to take inspired action towards my goals all while being at peace with who I am being and what I am putting out.

What are you allowing? What is your idea of rest? And how are you committed to doing so this week?