New Journey

Hey Everyone,

My name is Shianne, and well this is my first ever blog, not sure how it will go but hey the thought is what counts right? I thought long and hard about joining and writing how I feel and what to say and I finally found the right words to say and what I want to say so here goes nothing.

Recently I went through a hard time in my life. The boyfriend and I split up but let me just tell you he and I breaking up is the best thing that has ever happened to me. The time we spent apart i became someone I did not want to be. I was doing things I never would of thought I would do. I never realized just how imperfect I am. And how social media is so easy to do things that you feel will ease the pain but in reality they do not. I started reaching out to anybody and everybody I could friends, family, and people I have never met before for attention that I thought I needed. Well let’s just say I ended up doing a lot more then I should have. And going through 2 months of what seemed like hell the boyfriend and I managed to work it out on one condition I get rid of social media. Right get rid of socal media?!?!? Crazy to think about right, WRONG. We often don’t really know how involved with social media we are until we have to try to go without it. I’m sure your reading that saying oh it’s not that hard try it once it’s a lot easier said then done. The first week I was lost was not sure what to do with myself because our body’s and minds are so involved with social media we see it as a habitual habit it’s almost as if our body’s are little robots and we have to do the same things every single day. Well for once in my life I decided I wanted to stand out and be someone different then everyone else in the world. I wanted to be the 24 year old girl that does not have any type of social media. No Facebook, twitter, Snapchat, Instagram etc. The life I was living before I was not liking who I was I was belittling myself lower bars that never should have been lowered. So I decided it was time like I said the first week was complete hell because I was so involved and thought people needed to see what I was posting what I was saying when In reality do you really benefit from posting what you post? Does it truly make you happy? What are some pros to why you post things? I never thought about those kind of questions until my boyfriend asked me what do you get out of social media? At first I said what anyone would say well I can talk to whoever I want to talk to, people can like my pictures, people can comment and so on. And then it hit me as I thought more about it what really are the pros of having social media? The people I care about the most have my phone number, if people wanna see me we can make plans to meet in person so many things went through my mind making me realize that we within ourselves are the number one decider of everything with life. I thought that getting a ton of likes and comments on a picture was something that makes you feel good, granite it does but you should already be happy with yourself everyday you look into that mirror. It’s been almost 2 months that I have not had social media yes it was hard in the beginning but now I will say it has been the best decision of my life. I don’t want to give out all my journey just yet so if you want to hear me reach out comment just so I can see how many people are really interested in hear what I have to say. Thanks guys/girls can’t wait to hear from you all soon.