My friend

Fresh start. Reset. Start again. Do better. Be better. You be better. You get better. Then you fail. Fresh start. Start again. Don't wait for a year to go by to allow yourself to start again. If you're not happy where you are or how you are, allow yourself to identify what could make you happier. Allow yourself to not care about what others think. Allow yourself to love yourself. To be happy with yourself. My new year resolution is to be happy with myself and to love myself. By loving what I'm doing. By being what I am supposed to be. By loving me I can allow myself to love others. By being happy with me, I can be happy around others. My 2021 resolution is all about me, about doing what makes me happy, and about getting the fresh start. The fresh start of a journey of loving myself, and being happy. I felt like I was being influenced by exterior factors, so I started meditation and I found out that I am actually a vegan. I had the thought before, but I never allowed myself to think about it in essence, allways denying myself. I allready knew I love animals and life, I just didn't allow myself to make the connection. I want 2021 to be the year where I stop denying myself. To be the year I listen to myself, even if sometimes the thoughts are crazy. But life isn't supposed to be mundane and predictable and safe. Life is supposed to be about emotions, and experience and about feeling good. As far as I know I only get one chance to ride this body in this life, so my resolution is to make the most of the chance that I've been given and to make it a pleasurable, or at least interesting journey. In my quest of feeling good I realised that I need to improve my body health as well as my mind health. As a resolution I am working everyday to improve both of the aspects I identified problems with. I know I will allways feel better after I go for a run in the park, while listening to my favourite music. I don't even try to set any goals, like distance, or time. I just go for a run for the feeling of it. For the feeling of being alive, and for the knowledge that is also improving my body and my mind. What a beautiful and rewarding activity. I will not make a plan. I will not say "I have to run everyday". Instead I will just listen to my body. I remember a quote from my school that was written on a wall. It said "mens sana in corpore sano", which means healthy mind in a healthy body. So easy to remember. So easy to apply. So easy to understand. Sometimes I like to imagine how happy I will be when I ll get my body where it wants to be, and it's beautiful. I also realised that I like to write. And that I like to think about what to write. I am learning that writing can't be bad or good. Writing is about me. Writing is about making myself feel good about what I'm writing. And I don't need any motivation to do any of those things, because I like to do them, and they make me feel better. And, as I said, my resolution is to feel better. We're living in uncertain times, so let's get better and happier, and maybe things will change for the better.

Thank you for reading my thoughts.