My Fresh Start in the "City of Angels"

This place (Los Angeles, Ca) has been a part of my life that has most of my beautiful and painful memories in my life that made me change a lot for more than two years of my life. I have become someone who is more mature and wise and not to mention about me being patience and more understanding. Sometimes, I think about "What if's" but rather not know the possible answers for I don't want to give myself a hard time. Coming back here is one of the toughest decisions that I had to make because I know most of the places here in L.A. have the memories I had with the most important person in my life who was once not just my lover, but also as my partner, and my best friend. Driving to the places where I used to go with this person makes me ask myself if I really moved on. And the answer is YES. I moved on. This person is no longer part of the life I am living in right now and I am living my life with trials and errors. I met new people who I am becoming friends with and I discovered more interesting places to check out. I have nothing to say but I am so proud of myself for being one of the strong women of my generation. I am someone who is living in "my American dream" and who is someone who has a lot of responsibilities to my family. Some people say, being kind and soft-hearted is a weakness. I agree because I have experienced how people take advantage of that goodness. But despite hating, I rather still smile and be able to live my life without any regrets or guilt. True that I am still in the midst of finding an opportunity for myself or say, a career that I am hoping to achieve in life. It is difficult for sure. Not having a lot of people who know me. It is a very competitive place especially for someone like me. Hardship doesn't bother me that much but the negative people who constantly throw their garbage at me and yet I try to understand as much as I can. I just hope people learn how to understand each other more, rather than pushing each other on the edge of something just to see who is better and who is not.
I don't normally say anything about God, but I do believe in God 100%. Unfortunately, I may not be physically healthy ever since, but mentally, emotionally, and spiritually, I am very healthy and that is why I am still standing wherever I am.
I would like to share my thoughts about how to live life even though the whole world is not exactly cooperating on how you can achieve your success in time. It did take me a while to understand it myself, but hopefully what I am going to share would make sense to anyone who is still reading this.
Life doesn't have a PLAN A or PLAN B. There shouldn't be a plan after all in my opinion because in my experience, I don't know what the future holds for me. Every second matter, it can change every path of everyone's life. So for me, what really matters is that you are ready on how to face the possible possibilities that you would face in different circumstances of your life. Expecting sometimes can lead to disappointments. Sounds familiar right? So why not expect the unexpected?
Life is sure challenging. You meet people maybe few or a lot, but it doesn't matter. What matters is, you choose who to look up to to inspire yourself how to become better as a person and take the bad ones as an example of not to have in your life to avoid negative energy that will affect your positive thoughts.
Life is love itself. We just don't find love from friends, family, or to anyone else. We find love in ourselves if you know how to appreciate every single and simple thing that you have in your life. You may not have a lot of things like what others have, but you have something in common... and that is LIFE. That makes everyone equal. So it doesn't matter what your nationality, color, age, sex, or religion is because everyone has a heart and mind that make us have a LIFE.
Life is life. We all live, and we all die. And the "AFTERLIFE" story is for us to discover when we finally reach that final stage of our lives. But our final stage is not the ending, it's just a new beginning. So if you think you are having an unfortunate life right now, let me remind you again that you have all the chances in this world to get up and stand up again because you haven't reached your final stage of your life to quit.
I am so thankful for all the people who gave me love. These people I care about are the people who inspire me in my journey of life. As long as I don't give up, I believe I can also make it. And I hope you too.