Life Choices

I think when it comes to life and how each of us chooses our own path in life, that is where we are faced with the hardest challenges. Let it be a decision on what to wear, what to eat and who to date and many more countless things that we overthink about. We constantly overthink and worry about things that are outside of our control, but why do we do that? I think it is in our nature to worry and to think, to use your brain in one way or another, otherwise you feel useless and unwanted. But when it comes to worrying and overthinking, now that can have a negative impact on someone’s life. I used to deal with a lot of anxiety and stress from my everyday life routine, going to work, dealing with bills, some dating here and there and also just generally about my health and lifestyle. I felt like I was crumbling down, I have noticed my health was getting worse as I stressed too much, would wake up with a racing hearth beat and covered in sweat in the middle of the night, mind racing, the typical symptoms for panic and anxiety attacks. I used to think there was something seriously wrong with me and that I must be ill and it must be something serious, then I realized what the problem was. The stress, the overthinking, the anxiety all added to the whole experience of dealing with the attacks, I would freak myself out even more, start to get numb on the left side of my body, literally feeling as if I was having a stroke or a heart attack. Those few years were my lowest worst years that I can remember. But I realized that this isn’t something from an outside source, it is all coming from my own mind, I am making myself stress and anxious, and that I should stop making myself sick and worried about everything. It is wrong to worry about everything, you cannot control everything, you need to live in the moment, take each day as they come and never worry about what could be in the future, the future will always be in the future but you and your mind must remain in the present, and only try to think of things that you can actually control and might be able to change.

Life is a simple formula in my opinion, you learn as you go, you grow as a person and you become a better version of your previous self. Each person is faced with various scenarios in their life, they are faced with obstacles, challenges, people, things and situations. How each person chooses to deal with those things is what matters the most. We all have our bad days, ups and downs, where we felt lost and lonely, not knowing what tomorrow might bring but we somehow got through the difficult parts, we fought our inner demons and we won, that is what it means to grow as a person. When a person feels lost and abandoned, they must look for the light at the end of the tunnel, keep looking for it and eventually the light will come to save the day, positivity and optimism is what helps us thrive to live a better life. Each time we choose to do something, the universe adjusts accordingly, sometimes things happen for a reason, as they were meant to happen, sometimes they are not good things, unfair even, you end up thinking what have you done to deserve such things. But sometimes, these things or life events happen to give us a sign, to be a wakeup call that there is more to life than we know. We must always strive to get better and to be better as individuals, to learn, to love, to hate, to admit to our mistakes, learn from them and become the best version of ourselves, but not in anyone else's eyes but only your own. If you love yourself just the way you are, that is all that will matter and you will attract people with the same energy and positivity. Be strong with your own mind and soul and never let anyone tell you otherwise, because if you do let someone else control your thoughts then you are no longer an independent soul, be an independent soul and become what you always wanted to become.