Sophie M

Life Choices

I think when it comes to life and how each of us chooses our own path in life, that is where we are faced with the hardest challenges. Let it be a decision on what to wear, what to eat and who to date and many more countless things that we overthink about. We constantly overthink and worry about things that are outside of our control, but why do we do that? I think it is in our nature to worry and to think, to use your brain in one way or another, otherwise you feel useless and unwanted. But when it comes to worrying and overthinking, now that can have a negative impact on someone’s life. I used to deal with a lot of anxiety and stress from my everyday life routine, going to work, dealing with bills, some dating here and there and also just generally about my health and lifestyle. I felt like I was crumbling down, I have noticed my health was getting worse as I stressed too much, would wake up with a racing hearth beat and covered in sweat in the middle of the night, mind racing, the typical symptoms for panic and anxiety attacks. I used to think there was something seriously wrong with me and that I must be ill and it must be something serious, then I realized what the problem was. The stress, the overthinking, the anxiety all added to the whole experience of dealing with the attacks, I would freak myself out even more, start to get numb on the left side of my body, literally feeling as if I was having a stroke or a heart attack. Those few years were my lowest worst years that I can remember. But I realized that this isn’t something from an outside source, it is all coming from my own mind, I am making myself stress and anxious, and that I should stop making myself sick and worried about everything. It is wrong to worry about everything, you cannot control everything, you need to live in the moment, take each day as they come and never worry about what could be in the future, the future will always be in the future but you and your mind must remain in the present, and only try to think of things that you can actually control and might be able to change.