I'll Start on Monday

I must say that I have had multiple fresh starts since I became a conscious adult. I might have had a few fresh starts as a child as well, influenced by my families' fresh starts. At some point at 16 years of age, I actually believed that nothing else would help me follow my dreams than moving to another country. And I did, I moved. I jumped in the deep, dark beyond and I didn't have any fear. This was my fresh start, the place that would allow me to be my best self.

On the contrary, my best self was not uncovered at 16 years of age, after moving to another country by myself. (It was England, if you're wondering.) My best self didn't show up later that year, when I ditched boarding school and moved to London. Apparently, my second fresh start didn't lead to the magnitude of events I was expecting. It led to a volcano, which melted everything I thought I knew about life and myself. Can you imagine, being 17 years old, alone, being guilt-tripped by boys who wish they were men, and having no actual idea about the true worth of your life.

I tripped, I falled, I stayed on the ground,I stood up. Rewind.

I tripped, I falled, I stayed on the ground for longer, I stood up. Rewind.

Now it's five years later, I'm in my last year of university, soon to be a theatre director by diploma and after the whirlwind of my youth, where I didn't feel like I was allowed to be young, all I want to be is a do-er. There is so much on this planet that has to be seen, felt, tasted, experienced and fixed. We have the infinite power of improving what feels like a lost world and I can't wait to spread the newfound joy to everyone, everywhere.

I still trip, I still fall, I stay on the ground and I always stand up. Rewind.

That's the continuous loop of fresh starts - you will make a thousand mistakes before you reach your imaginary top. But by the time you reach it, you will grow so much, you won't remember what was the reason behind your wish. And you will start again, because the ones who wish to be better always learn that knowledge is a part of your life forever. There will always be more to learn about the world, and about yourself, and the mistakes are there to teach you, not harm you.

If you wanted to start last Monday, or the Monday before that, or a Monday that was a few years ago and didn't, it's never too late to start. The loop of new beginnings or "fresh starts" will always continue. But understand that a fresh start doesn't mean starting from scratch, it means readjusting your life to the ways in which you feel best.

Do it for yourself, for your Earthly experience and for the version you want to become in the future. No other opinion matters. Keep pushing. And stop waiting for Mondays.