I Am Enough

No matter where I go, or what I do, I love me for me. I love me so much that I want to make myself feel better in the process. This is something I really had to sit down and think about because doing so requires change.



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I got WLS (Weight Loss Surgery), but my “diet” is high protein and water based. No sugar, no fried foods, no sugary drinks, nor carbonated drinks, little to no rice, pasta, or breads. 



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I found a backup for rice and breads though. If I do pasta, I make sure it’s only protein pasta. Even so, depending on what I’m eating, 2-3 bites of food is my complete max. Drinking water, or flavored water, is 30 minutes before and after I eat. My snacking consists of cheese and a lunch meat, and for that, I rely on turkey a lot with it. Sometimes, I’ll have some beef jerky, but I don’t eat much of it really. 



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I’m supposed to be able to eat 1 cup of food at some point, but I’m not exactly sure when that was supposed to happen. 😅 I also wanted to make mention this part. YES I CRAVE ICE CREAM AND SWEET STUFF!😭😭😭 But all of it is sugar free and/or low carb. For example, Breyer Carb Smart Vanilla I’ve cream (2spoon fulls) mixed with a little bit of protein shake makes it taste just like a milkshake! 😍 I don’t have that all the time, but when I crave it, I have it. 



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Eating isn’t my go to, and it can’t ever be that way again. It mostly turned into emotional eating, which can be hard for me at times, especially right now. If anything, I digress and not eat anything at all, which I then have to force feed myself so I can still have energy.



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My exercise consisted of 30-80 minutes of yoga in the morning, and then walking 2 miles afterwards for 5-6 days a week. I have been committed to this. This is the lifestyle I chose for me. I had to focus on what I wanted to do for myself. I had to give myself the chance that it needed.



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The thing is, I always spent my time thinking, worrying, and taking care of others on so many levels. Be it emotional, mental, physical, or anything. Whatever it took to help a friend in tears, I was there. Whatever it took to make things less of a hassle for my family, to took the hits for them, even when it came to just being someone talk to, I tried to make myself available for them. I did it, and I will still do that, but right now? Right now, I need to shift the focus on me. I need to love me more because I need me more than I've ever needed me. It may sound weird, but this is a truth for all of us. It's okay to be selfish and need only you. I need only me so I can embrace and love her. I love this woman of life and love. I love her with my whole heart, and as I continue to learn about her, I will continue to love her more and more.

I Love Myself 💜