Here I am

This is it, here I am. Writing my thoughts on a page once again. I haven't written anything in a long time, maybe because of my lack of confidence in myself or perhaps the loss of passion.

I used to write a lot growing up, it was one of my favourite things to do in the whole world and I miss it. I've always wanted to be a writer, but I never felt good enough. Even to this day, I still continue to feel as if i'm not good enough. Even as I write this.

I had many teachers in my early years of primary school (Elementary School) and High school (Secondary school) compliment me on my writing skills which persuaded me to continue writing for pleasure. (I even wrote a fanfic at some point!) I started writing all the time, almost weekly, if not daily. I even wrote a piece for a writing competition, but I never submitted it because I was afraid. I believe I lost my passion for writing in year 10-12 in school. My english teachers were cruel about my creative writing that I was so proud of, it crushed me inside when I'd get bad grades back because they 'didn't like the story'. Every year I lost my love for it but still had a passion for reading and an urge to write but could never put my pen on that paper or my finger on that keyboard. I hope for that to change

I have so many unfinished stories that I never showed to anyone, not a single soul, I'm afraid to submit this, putting my slightly deep thoughts on the internet. I think it'll be okay, maybe it can help me improve myself

I came across this website not too long ago, at first i thought it was only creative writing, but then I noticed some people writing real things as I am now and I thought I'd give it a go. This place seems like a healthy community.

I used to love the site 'Wattpad', it has changed dramatically that I do not enjoy it like I used to growing up. There are far too many advertisements, making you pay for stories and subscriptions. Wattpad has become more of a business now rather than a place to share your stories peacefully. It has become chaotic and less appealing to the eye in my opinion.

I apologise if this is boring for anyone, I believe it is necessary for me to write this in order to feel better to gain my confidence and write more frequently more often.

I hope this is a good start for my first writing on here, I hope to do much more longer and creative pieces in the future