Fresh Start

Wow. What an absolutely crazy year 2020 was! I had a ton of life changes, some very positive and some negative. After such a wild year, I've started off my January by taking a step back from social media. I found myself getting absolutely hooked! Rather than doing school work, I'd hop on tik tok for 15 minutes. Or that's what I'd tell myself anyway, and then two hours later I'm still doing the same thing. Scrolling through video after video. Not only that, but I felt like I was comparing myself to all those people I was watching. Driving myself crazy by looking the mirror and not seeing reflected what I was watching on my phone. It was like being overwhelmed with thoughts like "You should look like them" or "Why aren't you more like them?" all the time. Because guess what? I don't look like any of those girls on tik tok, but with that kind of thinking I forgot the most important thing of all. That they don't look like me. I forgot that I'm a real person to, and just because I'm not some tik tok famous girl with my makeup done, hair curled and nails did, doesn't mean I'm not beautiful all on my own. So with that, I deleted my account! For days I would catch myself wanting to scroll through Tik tok. Can you say addiction? After a couple weeks that went away though, and I've felt so good since. I don't find myself comparing how I look to others and I feel like I have so much more time in a day to focus on things that make me happy! I realized this wasn't enough though though. I wanted to take this further! So I went through my instagram account and deleted over 200 followers, and unfollowed a whole wack of people. Now it's just my friends and family, people who I love and have a connection with. I decided I didn't really care to know what all these people I barely knew were up to. It's so draining! I want to dedicate this year to just being happy with me, and not feeling the need to always be hooked on social media and needing to know what's going on with every single persons life. Looking back, when I had something new and exciting happen, my first instinct would've been to post it on instagram. Now I just think, I can be happy for me, without feeling the need to broadcast my life to everyone else. My life and my successes should not based by the number of likes and follows I get. Neither should yours! It's like theres this unspoken stigma where if you have below said number of follows/likes your kinda lame. It just adds that additional pressure! We put ourselves out there on social media basically asking society for approval. Unfortunately we don't always get it. However, I promise I'm not here to just try and rag on social media platforms. I think they can be a great tool, especially for businesses and getting your name out there! Being completely honest, at this point in my life for me at taking a step back was what I needed. It's is so refreshing! I found myself having more energy and just overall being in a better mindset. So you bet I put that it into doing things I love (well, and school lol)! I absolutely love all things plants and flowers. So I've been doing a lot of reading on that, and would love to start a little flower farm in my own backyard! My goal this year is to focus on my plans and dreams and making them a reality. Endlessly pursuing what gives me those happy heart feels. I'm sure it sounds like something really small, just taking a step back from the world of social media. But hey, even a small step in the right direction is still a step closer to building the world I want for myself. So with that, I wish you all a very happy 2021, full of tons of adventures and new beginnings. Here's to us and this new year!