Follow Dreams.

In my last two years of high school I had to decide what my future would hold... I have always had the dream of becoming a plastic or foetal surgeon - studying medicine. I was ready, determined and down for anything the path to it would bring or so I thought. From one day to another the insecurities came in, I started to doubt whether I could do it, I would tell myself I would not be able to deal with the pressure and I went with all the negative thoughts and my dream of becoming a surgeon fell into the cracks.

Now here I am, just finished my first year of university... studying a Bachelor in Business Administration, something I never thought I would do but here we are. My first year of university was basically based around studying everything related to business, whilst in my spare time dreaming of what I would be doing now if I had just stuck with my heart and pursued the career of my dreams; I would not be sitting down watching videos on medicine, I would not be reading med articles and I would not be sitting down watching videos of people that are in med school ... but rather be one of them. I think about changing to med school constantly but I feel like it's too late for me.

The reason I am telling my story is because I know there is a lot of students not knowing whether to follow their passion or not based on all the negativity our brain creates - and from personal experience I understand what you are going through.

There is one thing I am going to tell you and that is that do NOT let your insecurities drive your decisions in life and you might think it's better said than done - which I mean fair enough! but when you think about it in the sense of asking yourself: Am I happy with my decision? Will I regret it later? Is it really worth listening to my thoughts?- and having a deep talk with yourself things change; and if it is someone else telling you "you can't do it" well you know what? no one can tell you what you are capable or not capable of doing and most likely this is people projecting the negativity they have towards themselves on you.

I wish I would have the mindset I have now and took a breath and sat myself down and asked myself all of that... right now I would probably be excited about my second year of university!

Take your time with decisions that will affect your future; take your time to understand the consequences it will have on yourself, as strange as it sounds your mind and heart will always feel the regret of what it could have been- as I am writing this I feel it.

Two of my favourite quotes say:

“Consult not your fears but your hopes and your dreams. Think not about your frustrations, but about your unfulfilled potential. Concern yourself not with what you tried and failed in, but with what it is still possible for you to do.” – Pope John XXIII

“There is no passion to be found playing small – in settling for a life that is less than the one you are capable of living.” – Nelson Mandela

You are capable of anything you put yourself to and no dream is worth leaving behind. Study what you have always dreamt of studying - Art? Music? Law? Theatre? Medicine? DO IT! no matter what anyone says or your insecurities, they are your dreams for a reason. Work where you want to work! Become whoever you want to become!

Go chase your dreams because no one else will chase them for you.