First Time Seeing Myself

Every day is just a normal day but there are some days that just show you who you really are. There are life obstacles that will give you guidance and direction into finding yourself. I found that those obstacles can lead you to either sink or swim. So you better be careful on your choice. The most difficult thing to do is "making a decision."

In the past, it used to be carefree and all you did was action with no thinking but now... Life depends on thinking and reflecting. Really making sure that the decision you make will take you on the right path or crash and burn. I thought I had the world in my hands and I would make myself survive in this Hunger Games arena which we call the earth.

Pity the world does not operate that easy because it's like a coin. One moment it's heads, the next, it's tails. Confusing and continually makes you doubtful about yourself. Never believe you will stay rich forever; poor forever or disabled forever. The world has its good days too, but we sometimes rarely see this good side of the world. Keeps me thinking that the world operates based on emotion. Like it's a sad person.

Hmmmm, how I wish that the world would show me it's good side every day. Instead, we suffer from heartache, pain, depression, stress, suicidal feelings and etc. By the time you realise there is a good side to the sufferings that the world puts you through, it's either too late or you're in a deep black hole so deep no one can get you out.

Then we result to a "quick fix" that we think will make our sorrows just magically disappear. It does not work, but it gives you a temporary escape. It's not nice being trapped by your emotions. Emotions can be your death trap. Never let your emotions get the better of you.

Everybody soon enough will say it's okay and everything will be better. Trust me, every time you hear that, it's like the pain gets worse and never really heals. This makes you realise who your real friends are and people who care about you. "When days are dark friends are few."

In conclusion, just focus on being yourself and love yourself. It is important to love yourself before loving anybody else. There is never a right or wrong time to start getting to know yourself.

Love yourself.