Confessions of a Former Alcoholic Part 35

Every time a dream comes to mind or I start laughing, I find myself actually drinking alcohol or smoking. When my mind constantly wanders back in time, my traumas come back to me. I don't want to talk about these to anyone, so I started helping people remember. Perhaps this was God's way of leading me to the church.

Some things I started to wonder were if it was one of life's truly unbelievable miracles or if praying to God every day helped with my problems.My experience has taught me that it is best to pray independent of any particular person or group and to trust one's intuition when doing so.

You can hear your voice and follow its direction after you quit babbling to other people. This, I believe, is what the Christian society refers to as peace.

Since I'm already 29, I plan on working extremely hard over the next ten years to live the life and family I desire in a different nation.I simply need to exercise patience and persevere for the time being. This is how I laid out my goals for the next decade. This is because everyone deserves the chance to lead a decent life or one that is in harmony with nature.

Desperation prevents people like me from immigrating. However, we must believe that the experience of people who have suffered a lot can be very deep.

Currently, I'm attempting to live according to my own set of laws because the area where I now reside is practically totally lawless. The lawlessness I am referring to includes behaviors such as a lack of respect among individuals and instances of drunk driving. When these little things add up, it really starts to cause anxiety and paranoia. That's why rules are important. Things like drunk driving and general lack of respect for one another are the kind of chaos I'm referring to.Anxiety and paranoia set in when these minor things add up. I think certain rules shouldn't be relaxed, and that's why rules are vital. ( Something I've learned in my professional life is that it's possible to hide in a memory while under the influence of alcohol, even if all other stressors are removed. That is why it is essential to proceed with caution and care. Attempting to do too much too soon can lead to uncontrollable situations. That is why having long-term employment is crucial.)

Writing helps me cope with memories of the past, even if I usually prefer to pursue art. If I want to start a new family, I must make some serious changes, and I've come to that realization. It is genuinely lovely when something speaks to a person's spirit and makes them feel at peace.

It is truly worth expressing, regardless of the challenges you may be facing. No matter how bad things go, God is always there and will send someone to help you.

I can state with absolute certainty that once a certain amount of time has passed, you are able to fall in love and change your surname to begin a new life. This is something that I understand when I look at it from a different viewpoint, when you discover the source of love in your life, etc. From my perspective, all I can say is that life and God provide individuals with a second chance and the determination to begin anew from scratch.

The future is always bright, but the past remains. I want to create a harmonious family life after three years without repeating my mistakes. This is similar to falling in love with a lady and living.