A positive life

Let me start by saying, life can be pretty incredible if you let it. This is a sentence I never would have believed 10 years ago. The reason I say 10 years ago, is this is when it all began. I was given the book The Secret by Rhonda Bryne on CD. I would listen to this book every day on my way to work and any other time I was in the car. I listened to the CD set so often, I could almost quote the whole thing. I listened, but I did not hear.

Through all the pain I was going through at the time. I really could not see how believing good things would make good things happen. I couldn’t believe that you could just think it then have it. I didn’t believe in God per se. Unsure of what I really believed in, I kept listening to The Secret, waiting for answers.

Little did I know, I was already on my journey. You see, I have always been a person who could have a conversation with anyone. There has always been something about me, that made people feel safe. I would go to the bar with friends and I was the one standing outside with some poor woman who was crying. I was the woman who would build other women up, all the while wondering if I really had anything to offer anyone.

The more I listened to The Secret, the more I started to take the time to get to know myself. The person I am today is forever grateful to the younger me that started listening and hearing. I started collecting anything positive I ever saw. Facebook was the best place for this. I saved every positive meme I possibly could. I started writing down positive thoughts that came to me.

Then one day I started branching out. Listening to speeches from motivational speakers. I could not get enough. I started taking notes and emailing them to myself when I was at work. Notebook after notebook was filled with my ideas, favorite quotes, lists of books to read, and anything else that came my way that was positive.

Finally my body started failing me. I was in a stressful corporate job, my body was in so much pain I couldn’t function on a daily basis. Going to Dr. appointments constantly, and only hearing that the tests didn’t show anything was more than I could bear. I switched jobs a couple of times, Words like hashimoto's thyroiditis, Fibromyalgia, Severe depression and anxiety, and a few other fun words kept becoming a regular part of my vocabulary.

This new life was one that was quickly consuming me. Three months into my most recent job, I ended up on medical leave. I was unable to get out of bed for more than a few hours at a time. 11 months later, I am staying up more, but still not to a point where I can go back to work.

The reason I tell you all of this is because during this time off, I have discovered a creative side of myself I never knew existed. The more I try to work on my physical and mental health, the more I have learned about the life I dream of having.

Right now I am in the process of putting together a class where I can teach others to have a positive life. How to see a life where you can be proud of yourself. One of my favorite quotes is from Lisa Nichols. “I know like I know like I know” This was in reference to seeing the life you want vs the life you have to live. I know that the positive lifestyle I have longed for is happening. I know that when I am clear on what I want, I will have the life of my dreams. The reason I know this is, it has already started. ‘

After years of training, I am ready to spread my knowledge to others. To see where I am now compared to that scared and lonely woman I was 10 years ago, I can’t believe the amount of growth. If you are interested in finding out more, continue to watch for stories here.

I am now in the process of writing a book. I do not know what the future holds for me, but I am really excited to find out. I am excited to know that an amazing future is waiting for me. I know I will help others reach their goals to make their dreams come true.

Thank you for reading my story! I hope 2021 is an amazing year for you and all you love.