2021: Just The Beginning!

Where do I even start? I have several goals set forth for the year; some of which are much easier than others. Shall I start with my recently discovered music dream? What about the internet radio station that I want to start? My love interest? Where do I want to move? All of those questions are fantastic and I will answer them throughout this adventure. However, none of this is going to make any sense without answering one simple question. How did I end up in my dad’s house at 26, with no car, no money and no job?

Twenty-Twenty: a year we’d all love to forget, but never will. Honestly, my twenty-twenty wasn’t all that bad. I had a lot of fun throughout the summer; I also made a few new friends. My fiancé and I were heading into our third year of the relationship; we were working, living on our own and even making new friends.

Unfortunately, as the weather cooled, so did our love. We started fighting. With each passing argument we grew further and further apart. It all came to blows on Christmas. I, admittedly, was being a jerk. She was being ruthless. Then, COVID exposure, we had to quarantine.

Our friend had to take a COVID test and it came back positive. We were at his house and even shared drinks, so, we most definitely had to quarantine. I could tell something was off from the instant we learned the news. My fiancé was visibly upset that she couldn’t go to work; she never seemed so disappointed to spend time with me. I tried to hold onto the relationship; she was not interested in that. She broke it off on our first night of quarantine, just three days after Christmas.

I tried to hold it out until quarantine was over, but I couldn’t. Second day in, I had to get out of that apartment. I took a long walk, talked to my dad on the phone and shed some tears. My dad’s best friend was, surprisingly, quick to say yes to picking me up and taking me to my dad’s extra house here in Pennsylvania. Thank god for dedication and love. I left her most of my stuff because she didn’t have easy access to much. I left my job because I don’t have a car. I even bought her food and essentials so she wouldn’t go without. Here I am now, feeling like a teenager with nothing to officially call my own.

Everything is for the better though. Having a breakup that close to the new year really put a lot of things into perspective for me. I learned that I was never fully fulfilled in that relationship. I learned that I had been in love with my ex from six years ago since the day I met her. I learned that I want to pursue a career in music. I learned who I want to be.

First, I want to pursue a career in music. I have many steps to take before that dream comes to fruition. I have goals for that in twent-twenty-one. I’m going to record and release at least one song before the end of the year. I’m going to build up an audience. I’m going to stay on my grind and keep posting and writing. I will need to learn marketing and proper music production. I’m going to keep on it until I get where I want to be.

Second, I want to create an internet radio station where I play music from all over the spectrum. There are multiple services which I can use for this experiment; it is up to me to decide which one I intend to use. Before anything, I’ll need to acquire a computer. I will also have to get myself some sponsors.

Third, I wish to start a relationship with the woman I truly love. I will, of course, start this one the correct way this time. I will take her on a nice date. I will maintain a strong friendship with her. I will also let her know I love her everyday.

Lastly, I wish to move back home. Home to me is Maryland, Montgomery County, to be specific. This one will take dedication. I will be moving my whole life. I will have to ensure I have the proper funds. I will need to acquire a car and attempt to find an apartment I can afford.

With all of these enormous goals, there’s only one way I know how to achieve them. That would be dedication. I will achieve my dreams. I will achieve my twenty-twenty-one goals because I will stay dedicated and stick with my plan. First step, acquire employment. Second step, acquire a car. Third step, save money like crazy. All of the other details will be taken care of as they come. I do my best when I keep moving.

In conclusion, I have my works cut out for me. I acknowledge that I’ve put a lot on my plate for twenty-twenty-one and beyond. I will make my dreams come true though. I will ensure my success. I have been knocked around, but I’ve learned how to roll with the punches. Here’s to a decade of memories to be made.