In The Beginning

From the time I was a kid, I always wondered where I would be by the time I reached 21. Well, here I am, a 21st century junior in college in the midst of a pandemic, and I never thought that I would be on the path of spiritual awakening that I am; working through my childhood traumas, releasing fears that had been keeping me stagnant and then some. Not to mention living through a pandemic, and the toll it has been taking.

Just before 2021, I began questioning my reality; questioning who I am, my path, my purpose… even down to the people in my life and their purposes; family included. I asked myself questions that others couldn't answer, and sometimes not even myself. That is, until I understood the impact of meditation and journaling. I gained much clarity that led towards my personal and spiritual growth as I continued these activities, and even of things that I never thought of prior to starting that particular part of my journey; regarding myself and life itself. I gained clarity, became more mindful and as a result, the importance of intentional living became the highlight of my life.

In doing all of this, I realized there was something else I wasn't quite grasping.

There needed to be a shift; a shift in my thought pattern; a shift in my perspective.

I continued journaling, meditating, and began writing my affirmations daily.

Slowly though surely, I began viewing myself as someone more than who I believed myself to be. I held outdated beliefs about myself that were limiting, and they were being released. At this point, I am remembering who I am, and who I am meant to be. Shortly after these epiphanies, I got into a self care routine that has been very beneficial to my mind, body, and soul; making this spiritual transformation smoother than it had been.

Before the shift, I can only describe it as going against the grain, whereas, after the shift, I was going along with it. No longer was I resisting the change that was trying to occur for my growth and healing. Yoga became a way for me to balance and center myself; walks in nature kept me grounded; meditation kept me mindful. I omitted people and situations that were not for my highest good, and I accepted that; I learned valuable lessons from them. I have come to realize all that is meant for me shall not pass me by and will not deplete me energetically. So it was, and so it is.

Going into 2021, I feel I am renewed, and more confident; armed with better knowledge from experiences that were no more than lessons; Some personal and some not so much. My resolution is to continue to press forward in my creative endeavors so that I may continue to grow as an individual and an artist; to share my creativity with others, growing my creative abilities in the process; reaching past the skies because there is no limit. I will remain disciplined and consistent so that I may succeed in all that I wish to accomplish.

My wellness will be, and has been already, the highlight of my year so far. Mentally, physically, and spiritually; mind, body, and soul as I mentioned earlier. I have taken time to tend to my mental health by taking breaks as needed from college, to focus on my physical health; making doctor appointments to make sure my body is functioning as it should, and being mindful of the foods that I am feeding my vessel to feel better within my being. Spiritually speaking, I make sure I continue to always seek depth, truth, and meaning in my life; practicing mindfulness, breath work and meditation.

Overall I give gratitude to 2020 and all that I have endured; for I have stepped into 2021 with courage, determination, and will.

I am ready to conquer all that will come my way, allowing nothing and no one to hold me back; stepping completely into a brand new chapter. And so it is.