Who will I be in the future?

I'm interested to know what I'll write cause I have no idea. Let's see...

I am not assuming that "we" know the same information taught the same way. Nooo..we're all different. So there is no "we" here, only "I" and what I've learned so far. Time is a man-made concept. The future? Doesn't exist. Or it does, but you only have the present moment. Future could be 5 minutes from now or 5 hours or 5 days or months or years. Future is relative. So who I want to be in the future?

This question doesn't ask that much about the future itself, but of your deepest desires and how well do you know yourself. I'm sure I'll read this again in 5 years when I'm not the same person as I am today and I'm either gonna laugh or be impressed.

Do I know what I want? Not really. Not yet. I'm just starting that journey of discovering myself. I felt limited for 25 years, like a bird in a cage and I was oppressed so much that I didn't know what I like or what I'd like to do in life. Here is what I envision so far, at least bits and pieces.

When I think about my future, I imagine my house most days, maybe multiple times a day without realizing it. Sometimes, it feels like I like that fantasy more than I do real life. I imagine it to be a big house that just seamlessly blends with the nature. It's a big territory, next to the forest and a little river. I have a greenhouse/office where I really like to spend most of my time. There is no lawn, just flowers everywhere and other green plants. The kids have a cool treehouse. They often invite their friends over there. I know that there is gonna be a man too, it's just that I don't have one now so it's hard to imagine what I look for. I just know in my heart that when I'll find the one I'm looking for, I will know immediately.

The house itself it's a piece of art.. Or my soul. It's one of those houses where you just don't want to leave. When you enter, you feel like you just stepped into a paradise of peace. Like nothing could get you there.

Who I will be in the future? Hmmm...

A woman who feels powerful.

A better mom than I ever got (sorry, not sorry)

Someone who adores her job.

A lover.

A caregiver.

A healer.

I want to be the role mode I never got to have.

A confidante.

A great friend.

A woman who enjoys little things.

A badass leader.

I always wanted my kids' friends to find me cool. So be it.

I guess I am already many of those things as I am the past, the present and the future and events and people shape the person I was, I am and I will become. I just want to be the better version of who I am today. I want to be someone who knows exactly what she wants and goes for it. I want the life I know I deserve. I want to live my future in abundance, love and harmony. I want to be in tune with myself, the nature and all people around me.

The thing is...I can decide to be anyone I want to be every day. Who I will be in the future depends only on who I am now. The present moment is a gift that must be fully appreciated. Even in difficult moments, there are lessons to be learned.

I'm really grateful to have shared that with you. Thank you.