The Year I Watched the Light Fall

I didn’t plan to watch the countdown that year.

2025 had worn me thin—layoffs, loss, the kind of loneliness that makes even your own voice feel like a stranger. By December, I’d stopped believing in fresh starts. New Year’s Eve felt like a cruel joke: a world celebrating while I was just trying to survive the night.

But at 11:45 p.m., I turned on the TV. Not for joy. Just to hear another human voice.

And there they were—thousands of people in a city I’d never seen, standing in the cold, faces upturned, arms linked like they were holding each other up. No one was posing. No one was selling anything. They were just there, with their grief, their hope, their quiet, unspoken wish for something softer.

In that moment, I remembered: I wasn’t alone in wanting to begin again.

I thought of my grandmother, who watched every New Year’s broadcast until the year she died. She’d sit in her armchair with a cup of tea, eyes fixed on the screen, and say, “It’s not about the ball, mija. It’s about remembering you’re part of something bigger.”

Back then, I didn’t understand. Now, I do.

Last year, I watched with my niece over video call. She’s eight, and she believes in magic the way adults believe in rent—completely, without irony. She wore a paper crown she’d made from wrapping paper, counted down with all the drama of a Broadway star, and shouted “Happy New Year!” like she’d just won the universe.

And in her joy, I saw what I’d forgotten: hope doesn’t need perfection. It just needs a witness.

I don’t care who sings or who hosts. I don’t need fireworks or celebrity interviews. What moves me are the faces in the crowd—the veteran holding his wife’s hand after sixty years, the nurse in uniform still standing tall after a double shift, the teenager mouthing “Did you see it?” to a friend three time zones away.

These aren’t extras in a show. They’re the real story—ordinary people choosing to believe, if only for a minute, that tomorrow might be kinder.

In a world of curated feeds and filtered realities, this one night feels like truth. No one’s chasing likes. No one’s scripting their reaction. They’re just human, standing in the cold, daring to hope together.

I live on the West Coast, so midnight comes early for me. My sister is already in the new year by the time I sit down. My friend overseas is just waking up. But for one minute, we’re all in the same breath. The same heartbeat. The same quiet belief that we deserve another try.

This year, I won’t make resolutions. I won’t promise to be better, thinner, or more successful.

Instead, I’ll do this:

At the moment the world holds its breath, I’ll light a candle.

I’ll say one honest thing out loud: “I’m still here.”

And that will be enough.

Because healing doesn’t always look like triumph. Sometimes, it looks like sitting in the dark and choosing to watch the light fall—not because you’re fixed, but because you’re willing to try.

The countdown was never about the clock.

It was about the millions of people who, for one night, stop pretending they have it all together—and simply hope, together.

And in a fractured world, that’s the most radical act of all.

So this December 31, I’ll be on my couch again.

Not because I believe in fresh starts.

But because I believe in us—the broken, the tired, the quietly hopeful—still showing up, still looking up, still whispering:

“Let’s go a little farther.”

And if that’s not a reason to celebrate, I don’t know what is.

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Disclaimer

Written by Kamran Ahmad from personal reflection and lived experience.