I Abdicate the Throne...

Dear Universe,

I am over this toxic reality where pain is inevitable and hatred reigns supreme. As an empath it is just too much to endure, feeling the emotion and energy from all around unbearable with this level of cruelty and stupidity. I resign from shouldering everything that you keep piling on my shoulders. You can take this bullshit, twisted reality show version of reality and fuck right off with it! I am done! It hurts too much to keep feeling it all, to keep seeing it all! My heart is aching from the unending trauma you have put me through since childhood and instead of giving me a fucking break, you shove fucking hot pokers into the scars.

I have always fought and tried to see the light no matter how many times it ended up being just another fucking trauma train running my ass over. I stubbornly continued to pick every broken piece of my heart, soul, body and mind back up and duct tape myself back together again and again. I've worn a fake fucking smile for years, continuing to believe that eventually you would see my worth, value and determination. I believed if I showed you that I could put all the mismatch puzzle pieces of myself together time and time again, refusing to let negativity and darkness win, eventually you would see that I deserved and earned a fucking break. Apparently, I was wrong because time and time again you continue to show that you just want to keep tearing me down... after making sure I have felt every single rip you've left within my being.

I've proudly worn the crown of being strong, being resilient, and always being too fucking stubborn to admit defeat or give up, even when bruised, broken and exhausted. I have continued to drag myself back to face whatever you threw at me next, smiling a big eat shit grin and telling myself that it has to get better... even though it never does. You continue to show that all you want to do is torment and torture me by making me feel every fucking thing, whether I want to or not. I do not deserve this abuse. I do not deserve this intolerable suffering and unending fight just to fucking keep myself glued together for you to shatter me again and again! What is your fucking problem?? What the fuck did I do to deserve this never ending trauma and agony??

Then, just when I thought that MAYBE... JUST MAYBE you were finally going to begin setting things right and rebalancing the scales of karma, you let that revolting, tangerine asshole have control of the country I love! How in the hell is that even right in any fucking Universe or version of reality??? Is this seriously what think is right? Those who fight for equality get shit on and those who spread hate, greed and cruelty get rewarded with more money and power?? But again, I kept holding on to the hope that you would sort this shit out before it went too far, and that maybe at least financially, I would have a fucking break because I had to TRY to see at least SOMETHING potentially positive. You respond by making prices rise higher, shit impossible to afford, raising my electricity bill by $300 fucking dollars and the cost of groceries more. My stocks went to shit, my crypto keeps being held back by the paprika prick's market manipulation, and I am fucking done!

Now, you decide if all that isn't bad enough, lets throw in a twist of familial suffering and dementia just to squeeze some more lemon juice into the empath's wounds. It's really fucking amazing how incredibly cruel and sadistic you have become in your old age! It's like you thrive off of giving someone the ability to feel everything and want to use it to heal and help others, while stabbing them with hot pokers at the same time! I am so fucking done with this shit, Universe! I abdicate the fucking throne! I'm done wearing this fake ass smile, acting like it will all be okay when you keep making sure it's not! I'm done taking your constant bullshit! I'm done allowing you to keep kicking me when I've just finished picking myself back up! I'm so fucking done with your insanity! I resign from the shit and I want off this fucking twisted reality timeline ride!

This is my resignation and the end of my time as your "always see the bright side, everything happens for a fucking reason" empath. You can take these feelings and emotions and shove them up that tangerine tyrant's ass because if anyone needs to feel humanity all at once it's him and his circus of idjits! I don't want this "job" of being the strong, resilient, patient, positive, healing one anymore! This reality you've allowed to take over is just too fucking much for this empath to keep smiling while staring at the oncoming fucking train. Consider me all out of fucks to give...

Sincerely,

One Empath Tired of This Twisted Timeline

** Disclosure: This is a vent for the purpose of this contest. While frustration levels are extremely high, this empath will always keep fighting no matter what. ♥

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