What I Learned In Heartbreak

I have recently been dumped from the longest relationship I've ever been in. There's a lot to take in when such a thing happens but I've learned throughout my years that there are certain things that you just can't control and one of the biggest things is someone else's romantic feelings for you.

There were signs that something was happening and it was really my fault that it continued longer than it should have. She had told me that she wasn't feeling anything for me anymore a while back. I was convinced I could change her mind but our relationship wasn't the same since. I feel guilty for convincing her to continue with me because she must have had to faked some of her enthusiasm for the relationship.

Sometimes there's things that are outside my realm of control. I've learned over the years that when some people don't feel it they just can't be forced to feel. This was definitely the proof that I needed to solidify my theory.

I'm thankful for all that she's given me throughout the years we were together. She knew how to make me smile just a little bit more than I usually do. I'm generally a happy guy and she was able to make me feel ecstatic about life. I know I'll miss that feeling but at least I got to experience that feeling for the moments we had them.

A worry of hers was that I wouldn't be able to handle myself but it's the total opposite. Prior to my relationship with her I've been single for quite some time and going back to single life has been surprisingly familiar. I've never needed someone to take care of myself. Instead I wanted to share my happiness in life with someone.

I reflect back on our relationship and she's taught me a lot. One of the biggest lessons she gave me was to learn how to let go. She would do things that I would often disagree with but she made me learn how to deal with those situations. I needed to learn patience. Everyone will have their own preferences in doing things as small as laundry, dishes, and cooking. There's no point in telling them how you would do it because they want to learn on their own. I've applied this to other life activities and it really has brought down my stress levels a hundred folds. Of course it's still difficult to not pay attention to those details because I have a little OCD but I've learned to be able to turn the other way.

She opened me up to the life of new cultures that I haven't seen before. I'm forever grateful for the introduction of all of the new experiences that she allowed me to enter.

Not only did she teach me about different cultures but she taught me to consider others. I've learned that there are a lot of people that suffer from different ailments and I should be more conscientious of their blights. It was eye opening to see how the world considers everyone to be able to do things that not everyone has access to. I've lived through an eye of privilege and needed to learn to be more compassionate to others. This was one of the main issues she had with me and I will honestly try to continue to be more mindful as she has taught me this ultimate lesson.

Some of these lessons I've learned over the time that I was with her and some of them I learned a little too late. I will always be thankful for all that she's given me and hopefully I'll become a better person because of her. I hope she ends up with someone that can treat her like the queen she is. It looks like my journey has started all over again but I'm going to take my time to find the right woman. She raised my self worth. After going out with her I know I deserve only the best as well.