What Do You Want?

Has any one ever asked you what you wanted? Have you been asked to set aside your partner, your kids, your job, your family and everyone else to honestly zero in on just you? To focus on what it is that you want and makes you happy? Have you looked at your present situation in your life and really soaked it all in to see if you are truly happy? To decide if you want to improve something in your life, or about you? To sift through everything and see what makes you happy and doesn’t make you happy? What can be changed or improved? If anything should be changed.

I know that’s a lot to swollow and make your head spin. We are at a phase in our lives to where we need those moments to evaluate our lives and us. We will continue to age and the world will press forward with or without us. Jobs will remain or change. Our children will grow and our hair color will change. Seasons will bring new changes for our environment to thrive and changes in our own lives. We need those moments of solace on a front porch swing to just think. To isolate all the noise and reflect. Are we happy with where we are at or do we need to change something?

It is in my personal belief that those moments of reflection of who we are and where we are in life; is what leads to infedelitiy, mid-life crisis, divorces, toxic relationships, depression, suicidal thoughts or tendencies, broken homes, and overall a suffering of loving who we are and loving life. I’m not sure about the many of you who are reading this, but I love my solitude to where I can think about it all. To decide where I’m at in life and if I’m happy. It woke me up to realize my son needed a better environment to grow in and I needed to be loved and appreciated appropriately instead of not being loved.

We all have mirrors that show the reflection of who are. We really never see ourselves. Wouldn’t it be nice to look in that mirror to someone who is happy and happy to be alive?

We decide who we want to become or who others see us as. Wouldn’t it be amazing for people to be happy for us because we are happy with ourselves and our life? That we project that through so much of our lives.

I myself, cherish the happiness that aluminates from my son when he sees me happy instead of sad. To participate in that joy and laughter makes my heart full of bliss. I’m glad I traded misery and being unloved, for being happy and having worth. To know that life is beautiful and we just get one. I personally want more out of life since realizing I wasn’t happy for nine years and the only happiness I got was from my son. We are entitled to so much that life has to offer if we just allow ourselves to reflect and see.

For the longest time I let him decide for us and I never knew what my life had in store for me. I’m free from that relationship and I love who I am. I love the strength I am gaining from healing. When I actually got to thinking about if I was happy or not, so much changed for me and my son for the better. I smile thinking about watching him grow and all the smiles I’ll have along the way. I look ahead and think about my hair turning silver and the wrinkles as my grandchildren run to me full of laughter and smiles. How beautiful that day will be and how I decided that change was needed for that future to happen. If you are happy and no change isn’t needed, then just keep loving life and be better than you was yesterday.

If you find yourself unhappy for whatever reason think about what needs to change. Do you want to trade misery for happiness? Change is hard. I know this first hand and the road won’t be easy but loving yourself is worth it. While you are making whatever change or changes that are needed to aqquire happiness, it will be like a roller coaster full of emotions and unexpected turns but your future will thank you.

The future you will look back at the you at that moment in time and say, “Thank you. I’m so proud of you for getting us here.”

Life is beautiful and chaotic. We have just one and should make it everything we want. It is your life, shouldn’t you have a say?