There was once a time where I thought love would be better if we actually found the one, we could be with, but it doesn’t work that way because no matter how hard we try there’s something in the way.
This girl keeps thinking if love is worth it because she has anxiety and insecurities day in and day out but what she doesn’t know is that there just might be that one person who could change her mind. As she walks and goes places, she avoids human contact or having a conversation with anybody so, nobody can know her true self because she’s afraid people might not like what they see. Till one day there is one person who feels the same way as she does which she doesn’t know that there’s someone out there who understands how she feels because she doesn’t know the world yet.
Will I ever connect with a human being again? Will I ever know what it’s like? Why I do I keep asking myself whether I like it or not this life of a world that I’m not supposed to be in. There is always a catch to knowing a woman it’s either bad or good maybe there should be a warning label on them I laughed at the thought in my head as I’m on the public bus full of people. Finally, I’m at the mall then I see these couple holding hands and I thought who holds hands these days however I feel doesn’t matter because love is just another thing that’s not worth it if there’s any girl out there to change my mind stay away please.
Why am I even here at the mall? Why does being a woman require so much work? If I was a born a boy, I bet it would be easier to shop after all I probably would have to choose any kind of clothing then I’m good to go. So, I guess I better get to it and get this over with because if I don’t, I’ll keep procrastinating the shopping which I don’t like because I have to face people to talk to while I pretend to be listening so, I can go as soon as possible. My life should be comedy because it’s a bad joke if I could snap my fingers to make it happen it would be easy, but life is an asshole not giving you what you want.
Come to think of it I saw guy sitting there having his coffee and I saw the look on his face I thought to myself is that the same look I had when I didn’t want to be in public. I never knew I’d see another person thinking the same thing about not liking being in public for the same reasons I didn’t like, let alone it being a man who was feeling the same which was weird to me since I don’t see many men who don’t like human interaction sometimes like me it was intriguing, and I had to know for some reason who this man was and what his thoughts were.
Ugh why do I have to be here at least I have coffee to deal with people today so, before I move to shop for clothes for myself, I’ll sit here to finish my coffee and enjoy not being bothered by people. I almost forgot I noticed a woman looking at me as she was walking by which she probably didn’t think I noticed her looking at me, makes me wonder why she was curious or what she was thinking at that moment. Why am I even curious what she thought!? I must be crazy wanting to know why however, it doesn’t hurt to know why but how I talk to her without it looking creepy I swear it’s like the universe messing with me why does it always seem like a lot of work talking to women.
Thank god that shopping chore is done well it is my fault for going to a place where one worker was a people person which was annoying because they like to talk a lot now let’s see if that man is still sitting there. How do you even talk to a man who doesn’t want to be bothered? Will it be annoying? Well here goes nothing I might as well give it the college try which is ironic because I never went to college.
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limitless black book
Abel does not know how he got in this place nor does he have any memory of what he did before he got to that place and now, he does not remember where he is from or who he is for that matter. All he remembers is this black book he has in his possession and waking up in the hospital where he has no clue what happened. As soon as he gets up and looks around, he soon finds out there was an injury he suffered on his head as the doctor told him what happened. Abel knows he must have suffered from amnesia which could be the reason why he cannot remember anything also, the doctor tells him that Abel’s been in coma for about a month. Abel sits there taking all the information he is being told by the doctor and tells him they must keep him there till he gets well enough to leave the hospital of course he agrees because what else is he going to do. Five days pass as Abel has thoughts to why he only has this black book with him so, Abel just puts it somewhere to figure it out after and he gets up to roam the hospital since he is going to be there for a while. However, he has an idea to use this time to figure out what happened or why this happened to him which the thought of that black book crosses his mind as he gathers his thoughts. Abel cannot help but think maybe that black book had something to do with it but if he does decide to look in the black book will the answers he wants to know be there? Is there even an explanation because the doctor said they found him outside the hospital injured. They were surprised to see Abel make it to the hospital given the condition he was in when they found him which makes Abel wonder more about who did that to him and what the reason was for them doing that to him. Six weeks have passed since this happened to Abel as he heals, he soon realizes those pills he has been getting from the hospital have been helping him regain some of his memories back. Who is this mystery man in the shadows as Abel recovers with his injuries and thinks to himself “you’re not getting away this way this time” as this man is talking to his boss on the phone? Before he hangs up, he hears him say “finish the job next time or else I’ll get someone else to get that black book” this stranger says to himself this little black book is becoming more work than I thought and to think it only took me a couple seconds to get distracted for Abel to slip through my hands. I will get that little black book this time as soon as Abel gets out of the hospital, I will get it off him and make sure I get rid of him permanently this time however, it was unfortunate for him to make it to the hospital. Even if I finished him off there there is no guarantee that nobody would have saw me go in there and this unknown culprit hated waiting for Abel to get out of the hospital because this man had no choice because he did not want the attention of witnesses to add to one of his problems. As this mysterious guy who nobody knows walks to the hospital, he soon finds out Able lost his memory which makes him think that it will be easy for him to get that little black book from Abel who does not remember how he looks. He gets out early than expected and this stranger misses him by a couple days early furthermore that gives him a head starts as he looks through his belongings to find his keys to his apartment. Then checks his phone for messages that might lead him to where he is staying but the doctor gives him his information that doctor filled out. Along with an address where he is living right now as he continues to make his way over there, the thoughts about that little black book that made him wonder if it was important. As this stranger finds out Abel got out a couple days early, he tries track down Abel to get that little black book for his own gain. Abel finally checks the little black book only to find out nothing is written in there but blank pages which leaves wonders why he does have it. A couple days pass as Abel has got out of the hospital that makes him feel better now that he is at home. It feels weird even though he does not remember anything about his apartment but feels safe in his own space. This person who was looking for the black little black book seems more determined as he searches for Abel around the city since he found out Abel got out of the hospital. This person who is desperately trying to find Abel has more knowledge about the little black book also, raises the question to why he is trying so hard to get that little black book off Abel. The young man decides to use it as a diary and will soon find out what that black book is able to do as Abel writes in the little black book, he writes I do not know why this happened to me or why it happened. I wish my memories would come back so, I would know the answers to my questions therefore a couple seconds pass and Abel gets all his memories back after writing it in that little black book. All his memories come all at once like a tidal wave of information. Everything is revealed to him in his memories as a connection to why he has the little black book also, what it can do whoever has this little black book in their possession. Abel remembers how he got the little black book in the first place if his memory serves him right Abel looks back at the memory thinking about how this all happened. As he goes further into his memories, he remembers seeing two men fighting in an ally as the one man asking the other person where the little black book was making obvious that it was crucial that he gets that black book. As he was remembering everything in his memory, he sees the man stab him because he thinks that person left that black little book at his hideout as he is walking away the other man who was stabbed says you are never going to find that little black Huron. Abel rushes to that man who was stabbed to tell him he called 911 after that man left him for dead before the dying man’s last breath, he tells Abel where he hid the little black book. He tells him not to let that man get his hands on that black book telling him Huron will only use it for his own selfish needs What Abel did not know the man who stabbed him did not leave because he was watching the whole time as he was telling Abel where he hid it. In Abel’s memory he goes to this place at the marina where that person says he hid the black book in the desk of an abandoned marina in one of the buildings then as soon as he finds the little black book Huron is right there outside waiting. Abel comes out of one of the buildings and to his surprise he sees the man who wanted the little black book waiting for him however he knew just by looking at the man which was hellbent on getting what he had in his possession. He tried running away the man was right behind him before he knew it there was no chance of escape, he knew he did not have the upper hand from that man for reasons he thought of was this man was more fit than him nevertheless stronger too. As Abel was trying to get way, he felt a blunt object hit his head more specifically on the top of his head which made him feel dizzy after that as the blood went down from his head he knew if he did not get away now he was as good as dead. Abel got lucky as two men were passing by to see him fall to ground as he got hit by the man, but the man seen those men coming toward where they were Abel used this opportunity to escape. He used what remaining strength he had left to get to the hospital that was twenty minutes away from that abandoned marina of the night he got away from that man. He knew everything now from recovering the memories he lost thanks to this little black book which he knows why Huron wanted this black book so badly in conclusion by reflecting on his memories about this man. Abel wanted to make sure he did not get it because Abel knew if he got this black book it would mean he can do anything he wanted without any consequences of him paying for his wrong doings. Huron heads back to the hospital after the sunsets using the night to his advantage of talking to the doctor who was looking out for Abel while he was in a coma, but he did not go there at night just out of choice. He was at the hospital while Abel was in coma for a reason which was knowing the shifts and routines of the nurses so, at nights he knew the doctor worked late while the nurses were not that aware of anything. Huron gets to the hospital undetected by the nurses and successfully gets the doctor alone to ask him where Abel lives telling the doctor he is an uncle worried about his nephew, but the doctor is suspicious of Huron and asks him for identification being related to his patient. He gets impatient with the doctor right there in the room he goes to lock the door getting prepared to beat the address out of the doctor making him know that he is not going to let anyone get in his way of getting that little black book. The doctor lays there beaten Huron gets tired of him not telling him the address so, he takes out his knife to decide on killing him instead by the expression on the doctor’s face he knows what is about to happen. He puts a knife to his throat to let him know he is not going to hesitate on taking his life then stabs him in the leg making him feel the pain to get him to tell the address of where Abel lives. The doctor pleads for him to stop by the look on Huron’s face the doctor knows he will not stop till he gets what he wants so, he gives up Abel’s address with Huron getting what he wanted he wastes no time and rushes to get to that place. Abel forgot all about what the little black book can do when he writes that he wants a cheeseburger with fries as he is looking at what he wrote disappears right in front of his eyes there is a cheeseburger with fries that appear on the counter. He then has the thought of just running away since the book can grant him anything he wants if he has this book this is an unlimited fortune he has stumbled upon. Huron gets to his place and picks the lock as he goes in one of the neighbors see him enter Abel’s apartment the neighbor does not have second thoughts on calling the cops since he clearly saw the man breaking into his neighbor’s apartment. As Abel gets ready to leave, he turns around to see the man that wants the book matter in fact he knows Huron is here to kill him if he does not give him what he wants. They start fighting each other but what Huron does not know before he got there Abel wrote in the book wishing he knew how to be a strong fighter. He then realizes that he must have wrote in the black book to level the playing field of him fighting back because as he was fighting him, he felt more stronger than before. It takes the cops seven minutes to get there once the call is made, they talk to the neighbor and he points them in the direction of the apartment where Huron broke into. The cops silently go into the apartment with drawn guns as they enter to prepare for a resistance from the culprit who broke in. Since they heard a gunshot, they rush in to try and stop him from killing the person who lives there as they enter, they see Huron have his sights on Abel right in front of him ready to kill him with the gun in his hand. One of the cops shoot Huron when he goes down and the cop checks Huron’s pulse which is announced that he’s dead, they approach the scene right away to see if the victim is okay or in need of medical support. Abel thanks the officers for their help by getting their names after the cops leave after answering their questions, he writes their names in the book for them to win the lottery. The next day he sees them on tv about how they both won ten million each so, he decides to write whoever knows about this book have them forget all about it. Two years pass Abel is certain nobody else is coming for the little black book however, he has been wealthier by having everything he ever wanted because of the limitless fortune he was given by the man he tried to help that day.
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