To Be Sad

Singing Asa’s 'happy people' was meant to be me telling myself forcefully I can be happy too, but when I could only relate to it on the basis of I love Asa’s songs, I was only able to wish for it.
Happiness is usually far from me, like how hard it is for me to reach the ceiling with my short hands.

That’s not the issue though, it is the way people seem so happy I begin to wonder if I am doing something wrong.
Ever wondered how people manage to keep a smiling face and be friendly? I still think people are happy just because they want to be, but that thinking is nonsense.
Am I not happy because I do not want to be? Or am I just doing it on purpose, for attention?

Many think a depressed soul - let’s say an unhappy soul - is purposefully doing so to chase clout.
I remember a talk that was made after someone managed to read the Bible. 'Don’t worry too much,' the person said, 'do not be depressed’.
I wanted to question the statement. I had a lot of raging questions.
Like the 'how’, 'why’, 'what' and so many of 'I do not understand' was running through my mind.

Do you tell a sad person not to be sad? How do you tell depressed soul to stop, it’s all going to be alright? Do you tell them to not think of life that way, to be hopeful? Do you think or not think they have thought of all these things and so many other things?
Does this all sound sensible to you? Do you think I’m right?

Telling a sad person or someone who is mentally depressed, emotionally hurt and physically stressed to look far ahead at the light at the end of the tunnel, is like telling someone who lost a loved one you will be fine, it gets better. You ignore the truth, dismiss it even and try to be hopeful, just because that is who you are. A hopeful and optimistic human.
You try to rub off on this person, all your traits and characteristics, your joy and happiness, your love and goodwill, gesture and all that makes you feel good, forgetting this: it doesn’t get better rather it gets better with time. To be hopeful, to feel loved cannot happen suddenly just because you wish it, it will happen only but you just need to take your time. Do not rush into these things, you can do it but don’t force it. You are loved but you need to love yourself first. What makes you happy? look, find it and go for it.
Words like such are okay, words like such and better, perhaps for me they are, I do not know about you.

I love happy people but I’d rather they stay from me.
I love optimistic humans, but I’d rather they appreciate my being, what I am about. I’d rather they don’t try to make me like them, it gives me peace.
Have you noticed though, that happy people, the optimistic ones tend to be nosy?
They put all they have into trying to change you. They try to make you like they are but here you are, sad as anyone can be, not trying to force anyone.
Then you start to feel pressured, you have people asking questions like 'why are you not happy?' 'What’s going on with you?'
They would not stop there, they also say to you 'it’s very easy to be happy, you know?'
'I didn’t ask for this’, you groan rubbing your hands on your face.
'I didn’t ask to be unhappy’, you moan out loud.
Tears fall down from your face, you lock yourself up in your room and they come knocking.

Happy people are cool people but also a menace.
A menace to the lives of those who just want to be left alone, those who want to be cared for from afar, those who do not want to be bombarded with bubbles of happiness.
'we’re happy people, and that’s who we are, we never change…' but there are sad people too, and that’s who we are, we never change but are open to it. We love to take things one step after the other, slowly, begrudgingly.
There are sad people too, and that’s okay.