So Much Left Unsaid

Not just from your side-from mine too.

Neither of us ever really said everything we wanted to.

We stayed silent.

Kept the pain buried deep in our chest,

As if letting it out would make us weaker somehow.

I thought we'd get time.

I believed a quiet a afternoon would come,

Maybe with coffee in hand,

Sitting on rooftop, breeze in our hair,

And we'd finally say all the things we left unsaid.

I thought time would wait for us.

But it didn't.

Life didn't pause for our unfinished sentences.

You went far away.

Not just in distance - but from my heart too.

A kind of distance that can't be measured in kilometers,

But one that's felt in every breath.

You were still there but not like before.

You weren't in my eyes the same way,

Or in my words,

Or in the dreams we used to share.

We slowly lost that easy language,

The one where we didn't need words to say, "I love you."

A glance was enough.

Where a single touch could say "don't be upset."

Now those feelings

They lie scattered,

In some old diary pages,

Or in a half-written note on my phone.

And every day, I look for the rest of that note.

The part that never got finished.

On these lonely nights,

When there's nothing but silence outside the window,

And the stars look extra quiet,

So many things come back to me-

Things I never got to say.

Words that now sit heavy in my chest.

Do you know?

I still start every day thinking of you.

Sometimes, without even realizing it,

I glance at your old pictures,

Or scroll quietly through your profile.

Your gentle smile, those familiar eyes-

They still shake something deep inside me.

Every night before I sleep,

A single thought crosses my mind -

"If only I had said it that day"

There's so much I wanted to say.

I wanted to tell you I was hurt when you walked away without a word.

I wanted to say I still love you - just like before.

I wanted to tell you how it aches to imagine you with someone else.

But none of it ever came out.

I just stayed quiet.

Waited.

Hope maybe you'd understand.

That if you love was real, you'd know.

But now I realize - not everyone understands the unspoken.

Some feelings need to be said out loud.

Otherwise, they're lost.

Forever.

There's still a space inside me -

One that's only yours.

Since the day you left, no one has been able to fill it.

I've tried.

I've honestly tried to move on.

To build myself again.

To forget you and start something new.

But every time I do,

Your shadow stands there

Right in the middle of the path.

People say time heals everything.

But no-it doesn't.

Time just blurs the memories.

The pain still stays,

Maybe a little buries,

But never any less sharp.

If you still think of me sometimes -

Know this:

I'm still here.

Somewhere in this same city,

Sitting quietly with your memory.

Even now, when I close my eyes,

I can see your smile.

I can hear your voice.

There's still so much left unsaid.

If you ever come back-

I'll tell you everything.

One by one.

Slowly.

I'll tell you

How I still pray for you.

How every song brings back flashes of those old evenings.

How I still read our old messages,

The ones where you ended with "Take care."

Just come back once..

Just one.

I'll say everything I couldn't.

And I'll listen, too-

To all the words you never said.

This time, I won't stay said.

This time, I'll tell it all.

This time, I won't leave anything for "later"

Come back--

And we'll start again.

Maybe not from where we left off,

But from a new page...

With a new story.