Only in the movies

Dear Universe;

I'm feeling mighty lost, lonely & stressed out as of late & I am in desperate need of one of those 'only seen in movies' type of moments in my life...

Where u get some time with ur person... that one that knows what ur feeling without u even saying a word ...the someone u care for like no other & whom cares for u just the same. U trust each other impeccably... knowing that’s a rare & precious attribute all in itself. That one person that makes anything fun, but also cares enough to do nothing with u, if that's what u need.

On this particular night, the two of u sit up together, sharing & reminiscing... out back at a bonfire or inside by the fireplace or somewhere u can just be u. No sterile bright lights or unnatural materials invading the space, no sounds of the city ...just someplace that feels a lot like home... the way home should feel.

It’s just the two of u...& that is perfect.

The hours pass with ease as ur laughing & crying & bitching & listening...& also being thankful. Forgetting the rest of the world... because they don't matter right now. This is self care of both the mind & of the heart & u deserve it.

The night both flies by & goes on forever somehow... a much needed flood gate purge.

U are free to be silent, as needed, at times... it’s ok ... or to just let it all out.

And U know ur safe. While u don’t often have that feeling anymore, u now know that u really missed it, without even realizing. And u talk about anything & everything ... gripping & giggling, & sharing & snacking & sipping wine or whatever works. Anything that helps u to relax... to lower ur bunched up shoulders & relieve that pain in ur neck that u thought was now permanent, & really let go of those burdens life has piled on u & of ur stringent inhibitions. Releasing all the negative energy that u have been holding in for who knows how long... *exhale deeply. ...inhale a rich, cleansing breathe, & deeply exhale again... releasing all which does not serve u.

Some might say this was wasted time, but to u it’s like pure gold. It’s a truly wonderful night & ur finally remembering why life doesn't suck for once ... & it’s even making u glad to be alive again.

Thank goodness.

U realize that ur feeling refreshed, even on no sleep, as the sun peeks out at u. These precious moments are what keep us whole, or help us rebuild when we’ve fallen apart. Like waking up to see a multicolored sunrise for the first time... ur now recharged & amazingly enough, u have found ur strength again.

Properly dismounted & re-suited with armor of the soul, maybe u really can continue this fight.

You’ve got this... Go get ‘em!