Marriage and friends choose marriage, right?

I was married in a different place. My husband and I met because I was introduced by a little best friend C. My best friend C is temperamental, thin and tall, which is the type that men like. I am 163, 60 kg, with an uneven body and thick legs. The only face is better than C. The point is that I am gentle but also very direct. The reason is that I got married and came to bless my wedding from thousands of miles away. I was busy preparing for the wedding. Sometimes I couldn’t take care of C. My husband would help me take care of her. I had a meal with C two nights before the wedding to say goodbye to being single for me. After dinner, I drank a lot of wine. During this period, my husband took good care of C and even took off his own clothes and put them on C because C wore less. Later, C and I both drank too much. My husband arranged for us to sleep separately. Actually, I was awake because while my husband was taking care of C, I always felt that it was not right and a little too caring, so I pretended to fall asleep and waited until my husband sent a message to C that I was asleep. I woke up He grabbed his cell phone and asked him why he asked. The husband confessed that he wanted to sleep with C, and he also said that C seduced him. C and I have known C since childhood. The private life of C is indeed quite chaotic, but I am still willing to believe that when C sleeps, no one will sleep with my husband. Later, because I registered in advance, my mother-in-law's intercession wedding was completed, and C returned to our hometown. I actually love my husband very much for the sake of marriage, and continue to live as if nothing happened. It's just that I haven't contacted C since then. She occasionally tells me that she misses me, and I also fight haha. At the end of this year, she kept saying that she missed me. She hadn't seen me for 5 years. She missed me very much and wanted to come and see me, but I never went to see her every time I went back to my parents' house. She, until a few days ago she learned that I had resigned and asked to see me again. I reluctantly agreed. When she came, I asked my husband if he had any thoughts in the past. Actually, I just reminded him to be honest if he wants to live his life well. C is here, maybe it’s really just thinking of me because it’s the 10.1 long holiday, we are in an ancient city, I want to take C to go to the ancient street attractions, parks and museums, C refused and said he just wanted to stay at home with me, C stayed for two nights , I didn't dare to sleep for two nights. I was afraid that they would stray when I fell asleep. To be honest, I don't believe either of them. I've been very tired these two days. I don't know if I'm really sick. After all these years of marriage, I never cared about doubting what happened to my husband and others, but I was really afraid of them. Just last night I insisted on sleeping until 2 o'clock in the middle of the night, and I found that C was still I didn't sleep, and my husband didn't sleep either. I really couldn't calm down. I sent C a WeChat message to ask her why she didn't sleep and if she had any thoughts with my husband. I heard C cry and went to the bathroom to wash her face, I said I'm sorry and said what I was afraid of. C said I was sick and asked me to see a psychiatrist. Then today, C secretly packed his things and left. In fact, if I chased her to the train station, I could chase her back. I didn't go. I called and texted her but didn't reply. I hope she can go and I can relax. For a moment, but my heart is really aching, I feel very poor and bad. I want to get divorced. I'm tired, really tired. Since you've been married far away, your friends and so on are also far away. Even if you are in contact, you have to take time. When you have children, you won't have any time, so there's no such thing as intentional alienation. Secondly, you love your husband, and your husband wants to cheat, thinks she is beautiful, and there are many beautiful women. You can prevent it for a while, but you can't prevent it for a lifetime. And your friend was not with him at the beginning, and he will not be with him now. She treats you as a friend, and of course you can't save it. It's like this, and people won't listen to explanations. If you have children, think about it carefully. Women who marry far away are very hard. They have no friends or family. All relationships start anew. You love him. And don't you think there's something wrong with your husband? If you talk too much, it's nothing more than your husband's fascination. You haven't actually cheated in your marriage. It's like dropping 100 yuan of shit. It's disgusting whether you pick it up or not.