Love is deep

You have completely seduced my heart, mind and spirit. I feel like every time we talk, you are making love to my heart, mind, spirit and every other part of me , seen and not seen . I haven't opened up to anyone in my whole life the way I opened up to you. My heart beats 50× harder and faster every time your name comes up , anytime I get a text from you or get a phone call .

I just get so excited that I have this feeling of euphoria around you and it is the most amazing feeling to have, and I am so blessed to be that vulnerable to someone as amazing inside and outside as you are . You have always treated me the right way , although we did have a couple words between each other , nothing and nobody has come in between us and I don't believe anything ever will, except God himself. That is the connection that we have together , a connection so great that nothing can compare to the friendship have formed and nobody ever will.

When I talk to you either in person or over the phone I know that what I say will not be repeated unless we agree on it first. When we talk , I can feel the compassion concern and genuine care in your voice, it is such a warming feeling to my heart. When we text each other , I can hear your voice sometimes and it always makes me smile and sometimes makes me laugh out loud. You are the only person I feel like I can share anything and everything with. I have told you more than I have ever told anyone in my life before I have shared it with you. There are still some things that I haven't been able to tell you yet but, I plan on telling you everything about me , my kids, my family. Whatever you want to know, but I remember you told me a long time ago to be a little mysterious and not tell all at one time. I decided to take your advice on it finally.

The information you have right now , is enough to ruin my life or turn it into a tailspin . I would not trust anybody with all the information about me however , I completely trust you. I trust you 100% with my deepest darkest secrets, all my problems, my worries, ambitions, all my dreams and everything else, I am an open book to you.

What we have had for many years , people only dream of having love this pure, intimate , compassionate and loving. The kind everyone wishes they had but only very few find it. God blessed me by putting a very special person in my life and even though things didn't work out for us as a couple, I still have the most amazing relationship a girl could have with a male best friend. If you get to read this , just know that you have been and will always be my sweetheart . I will always be your bestfriend and your ride or die chick.

I was so excited at the beginning of our relationship ,but I was also terrified because it was the most intense connection or feeling I ever felt. I have never fell for anyone like I did with you. I fell hard and fast. The first time we talked was on July 15, 2015 , but it was the friendly hi how are you , have a good day and bye. We really started talking on Nov 16, 2015 and by my birthday Nov 22 , 2015 we already had a deep connection and by Dec , we were basically a happy long distance couple. It really was nice the way we could talk and relate to each other . I loved how you made me feel good about myself , you always told me i was beautiful on the inside and outside you were always complimenting me on how I looked and for the first time in my life , I felt beautiful . I loved how you helped me to stop over thinking so much, and just learned patience and taking one day at a time. I loved how you sent me the winky eyes, flirting with me, it made me smile when at the time all I wanted to do was cry. I loved how you inspired me to pursue my passions and how you made me want to be a better person. I loved how you helped me get my faith back when I lost it with inspirational words and the knowledge and wisdom to help people. I loved how you encouraged me to strengthen my walk with God and never used my faith against me . I loved being called sweetie, baby, babe , beautiful , sweetheart and all the proper polite words as well . I loved hearing you call me crazy for some strange reason , maybe it was the way you said it , I love your accent, very very much , how you have that southern bamy accent was always very sexy and hypnotizing and then your voice when you sang , totally breathtaking.

To be continued ......