I have found that in life we go through a lot, weather it be good, bad, hard or even stressful Its life. In my life In my life I have learnt that it takes knowing hope, having love and having strength helps to over come the bad in life. Guyana where I am from I learned that I need to be strong.
As a kid I was bullied and picked on in school. There were days that I sat and cried because all the kids were mean to me and call me names. Boys use to say that I was ugly. There were even kids that said i was dumb. I felt all that pain but told no one because I didn't want people to know that i was being bullied in school.
My family didn't have much so i didn't want them to have to worry about me too, so i decided to stop being shy and stop crying and start standing up for myself. But this side of me was not the side of me that i liked because i became someone even I didn't know. I was using bad words and having boyfriends. The friends i started following were the ones that got me in to trouble, and i was only 11 in Primary school, { Middle school here in the USA}. I turned into the kids that were being mean to me. Its not till I got to Secondary school that i changed, I got saved, went to church and joined the dance and sing groups. Doing this open my eyes to the person i really was and made me see that i was stronger than the people trying to bring me down and bully me.
After finding the new me i became more mindful of what i said to people and how i acted towards them. Me changing didn't me that i stopped being bullied, it just means that i didn't let it get to me much. I still was not fully the person i am now, i was still using bad words when ever anyone got me upset and picked on me or the people i hanged out with.
In my life i have lost people i love very much. I lost my grandfather and my grandmother and both of them i was not able to say good by too. Because of this i felt like i let them down. But i learned to deal with it and move on and live for myself,my husband and my kids.
My life today is better because i have my family, its harder than it was last year because of something that happen to me and my fam. We both lost our jobs and we r both home with our kids. We love it but at the same time I wonder about us paying the bills and providing for ourselves and kids. What makes it worst is that we have to wait on people to do their job so we can move one with our lives. But in spite of all that we are learning to fight through it with hope and family by our side.
Sooooo live your life the best way you can, and remember we all need hope, love, and family in our life. Never take live for granted BYE FOR NOW.
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Hi my name is Keshia, I was born in a place called Guyana. I am 31 years old, my birthday is December 23. I'm a Christian, I'm a wife and mother to 4 beautiful children. Me and my husband have been married for 13 years December 2, 2020. My kids are 11,7,4 and 1. I am a house wife and a stay at home mom. I like to draw, paint, sing, dance, watch movies and tv shows, play video games and crochet. I don't have friends like i would like to have but i have people i talk to from playing video games. Life is hard, being a wife and a husband is hard because you don't just have u to think about, but I manage with the help of my husband, mom and the smiles from my kids face. I became a mom when i was 20 years old but got pregnant when i was 19. I would have 6 kids now but due to circumstances i only have 4. Me and my husband went from working to being homeless to living in a shelter with out at the time daughter. we had family but didn't always get along with them. So we did what we have to do and just moved into a shelter where we stayed for about a year or 2. Then we moved to Tampa where my husband was able to get a job and support us. We moved out of his parents house where we were living at the time to a 2 bedroom apartment where we live for 8 years until out family got bigger and had to move to a 3 bedroom apartment. We have been here now for about 2 years now. Thing are better not but we are still not where we would like to be. My husband used to work for Walmart but lost his job because of a car accident so he is currently out of work. I don't currently have a job but it would be nice to find a job I can do at home and still have time to spend with my family. I use to work for Instatcart but curtain circumstances cause me to have to leave. I also do Avon and YouTube to try and make some money but its hard to do that when u don't know a lot of people. So I am trying what I can to make some money to help bring in some income. With all the things I like to do I am trying my hand at everything. Trying to sell art work, and crocheting work. But so far nutting, I don't know what I want to do or be in the further, I know that I would like to one day own my own pet store or arts and craft store but I am scared to do it. It all sounds so easy to do but scary at the same time. I have questions like how will I do it, what will I do, what will I sell, will people support me and if so will I be able to stick with it. All these things play a part of why I feel sacred. I often ask myself who am I and what am I doing with my life besides being a wife and mom and I can never answer myself because to be honest I don't know what I truly want to do with my life, and how to go about doing them. Me and my husband are both currently home school our kids because of the virus that is currently going around. In the beginning it was hard because of how much we had to do with them and because it was all new to us. Our kids are always full of life and are always hungry. My kids are my job and my stress and i wouldn't trade them for nutting.
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