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Inside the Mind of Evil: A Psychological Exploration

Twisted Thoughts: Cognitive Patterns of the Malevolent

By Alice WonderPublished about a year ago 7 min read
Inside the Mind of Evil: A Psychological Exploration
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If you study the fantasies of very, very dark people you see that they brewed and fantasized in isolation for years and the fantasies got darker and darker and darker. So they're bitter and resentful, to begin with, and then they start fantasizing about, well, what they would want. That can take a sexual and or it can take a very violent one.And take both and what they're after is the ultimate in revenge. And on the sexual front, they find a kick in extending the, what would you call it, the unacceptability of the fantasy 1 stage at a time.The famous and handsome sexual serial killer. What was his name He's a famous photograph of him like this very attractive man. Do you remember his dead Bundy buddy Ted Bundy Ted Bundy detailed exactly how he. Fantasies progressed as he became more and more involved with ***********. And what happens in some sense is that these people who are nursing these terrible fantasies want to stay on the edge of novelty. And so, their fantasies get darker and darker and darker as they progress down that road. And so, after 1000, such micro progressions they end up. Exactly the sort of pit that you're describing. And some of that is pure sexual kick because of the novelty. And but it's got this sadistic and perverse vengeful twist. And you could think about it this way. You know, I think it says in the Gospels that, you know, it would be better.That that the most millstone was hung around your neck and that you were cast into the abyss than to harm any of God's children, let's say. And that's actually where the perverse delight comes, because the most egregious possible sin, let's say, is the violent sexual abuse of the most innocent possible person.And the perverse novelty kick is highest at exactly that point. And then that just goes from bad to worse. And there's 1000 or even 10,000 micro-decisions that go along with that. There's also a great book called Ordinary Men. This is well worth reading, although it's a bloody catastrophe to read. I'll tell you it details out how a group of.German policemen who were moved to Poland during World War Two were transformed from ordinary middle-class working class or sorry, ordinary working-class men.Old enough to not have been raised under the Nazi regime, by the way, and so not propagandized into a kind of mindless obedience. How they went from being perfectly ordinary policemen to the sort of people who could take naked pregnant women out into the middle of the field and shoot them in the back of the head. And it.Like they had an easy time with that. Some of them reported the same sort of thing that you reported when you first watched that video. What they were being called upon to do stage by stage made them physically ill and they had a commander who told them that they could leave the service if they didn't want to continue with their duties. But they felt.Bound not to leave their comrades having to mop up the terrible situation. But it does a lovely job of detailing out how your movement from normality to absolute perversity is a consequence of 10,000.Micro, what would you say? Micro violations of your conscience? Not all of the micro. So, you know, you need to know about the vengefulness, you need to know about the kick of sadism. That's that novelty kick that produces a dopaminergic kick that heightens sexual satisfaction. And so, there's an element of. Sadistic misery that can add novelty to sex. That's particularly attractive to people who are bitter and resentful because they actually can't find any willing sexual partners and so they're angry at the world and shake their fists at God because of it. And so anyways, that's a bit of the developmental course of such a lovely.Descent into hell. And the interesting thing about it is that people brew days like you don't get to the point where you're watching pornographic videos of children being raped without hundreds or even thousands of hours of increasingly demented voluntary fantasy. And that's that.Allowing the spirit of sin that would otherwise Crouch on your doorstep to enter your house and have its way with you, right? It's like a collaborative venture with Satan himself. That's the most straightforward way of describing it. And so well, so that's I don't know what you have to say about that, but I'll let you have an adder. I'll.Say that everything you're saying resonates with my anecdotal experiences dealing with these people. I look into their eyes and what you're describing is what I see, though I've never been able to articulate it like you just have. So I appreciate being armed with with.With an understanding that it will help me evangelize more clearly to others about the dangers of over-stimulation and overview of *********** and shaking hands with the devil. So thank you for that. That was very insightful.So, I spent a bit of time, not a lot, but a bit of time inside a maximum security prison when I was a kid. I worked with a very strange psychologist who was there. And one of the things that shocked me and I, I think this shocked me enough to change my whole life was. I, I met this, I met this one prisoner who was a pretty nondescript-looking character. He took me for a walkout in the yard away from a gym full of weight-lifting ax-murderer monsters and rapists. And we went for a walk out in the yard and the psychologist called us back and told me later in the office that this guy.It's about 5:00 to the pretty unprepossessing guy who made two policemen. Kneel in front of him, begged for their lives about their families, and then shot them both in the back of the head and kicked them aside. And the shocking thing to me was, you know, you kind of think that. If you met pure evil, it would, it would have a monstrous form. And you know, the thing that shocked me about that was the nondescript nature of this guy. You know, his, his banal ordinariness, the fact that you could just walk past him on the street, you'd never know he wasn't some monster. You know, the monstrous character of.Satan in your imagination is, you know, a figure that's terrifying to behold instead of someone normal. You know what I mean? Normal in that cringing sense. These people that you've interacted with, like what's your reaction to them when you talk to them, the pedophiles when you talk to them, and when you arrest them?My experience is very similar to what you just described. Very nondescript people from all walks of life. We've, we've arrested and I've interrogated educators, lawyers, law enforcement, clergymen.And, sitting across from them, there's but with no apparent physicality that would tell you who they are. But I will say this, when they start talking and I look into their eyes, that's when I can, I sense something that that it, that scares the hell out of me.And the way they talk about children and when they get there and it's, it's something that they've been able to normalize and they're speaking to me about children almost like they're talking about, you know, like the weather or, you know, talking about buying and selling children like you talk about buying and.Computer parts or an automobile or something. And that's where I thought something has taken over you something non-human has made you less human and I've never been able to figure it out, only that it creeps me out.And I usually end up getting them to confess because they have brought themselves to a place where they think they're OK. They think that it's somehow normal. I don't know if that makes sense. How are they, Doctor Peterson? Well, the degree of rationalization that has to do with each step forward in the progress of the.Fantasy there has to be a step forward in the self-deception with regards to self-description, right? So imagine that you're attempting to cling to a sense of yourself at least as normal, but even maybe as a moral agent. I mean the more forthright pedophiles claim that.They're only allowing children to express their true sexual desires and what they're doing is forming the best relationship with the children that they've ever had. Now, of course, there's part of them that knows that that's a bloody, screaming hellish lie. But you get to that lie, like I said, with 1000 micro lies, right? And you're modifying yourself.Conception along the way means have you had these people justify themselves to you, and if so, by what means do they attempt to do that? So one person that comes to mind gets an absolute answer is yes, and one person that comes to mind is the person depicted in the film Oshinsky.This person had written articles, self-published, of course, he had a book that he sold on Amazon, and his understanding or his justification was that the puritanical Society of this country had crushed the truth.And and beautiful and righteous sexual experience which the the most natural would be between a man and a child, a prepubescent child is the most beautiful form of humanity.And why? Why take that away from a child? Children would be well conditioned to confront the challenges of life if only they could experience orgasmic pleasure even in their prepubescent. This is how they talk.Right, right. Yeah. Well, you saw echoes of that. There were attempts made in the 1970s by French intellectuals, surprise, surprise, to have the age of consent reduced radically. And that was always the rationale. It was an extension of the patriarchal oppression theory in some sense, right, That all sexual expression is essential.And good in its most fundamental form. And it's all warped by social pressure. And if we were just allowed to express ourselves in every manner that we saw fit, that everyone would be free and we wouldn't suffer anymore from the constraints of tyrannical society, right? And it's just convenient for the bloody pedophiles that that happens to justify them doing whatever.What the hell do they want children who are too young to consent?

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Alice Wonder

I’m Alice Wonder, a psychology enthusiast passionate about exploring the human mind. I love breaking down complex ideas and sharing insights that make psychology relatable and engaging. Join me on this journey of discovery!

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