In search of finding my authentic self

I recently spent some time in Goa( In India) for vacation. During my stay, I became frustrated and locked my phone in the room's security locker and freed my spirit from the hassle of social media biz.

Do you too relate to it?

On the second day of my visit, I became enslaved by the addiction of taking selfies and photos of anything that caught my attention for publishing on social media. Then comes the waiting for views, likes, and comments to flood in and feeling frustrated when it didn't get the expected number of likes or comments.

Then comes the wondering and questioning, "Why didn't I get it?". The solution to this "why" drags you away from the real purpose altogether.

All this was too overwhelming. I was there for a vacation, spending some leisure time, but I was all engrossed in the social media buzz.

"No more," I said. For whatever reason, I'm not destroying my retreat. I turned off my phone and locked it inside, promising myself that I would not use the internet. Only receiving calls from close friends and family members, that's it. I'm taking a break. Let everything take a rest for a while.

The moment I reprogrammed my mind with this thought, I noticed the beauty around me.

I went to the beach, which was breathtakingly gorgeous. Nature's beauty surpasses all others. The cold water wiped away the blocks and negatives I carried all this time as the relaxing breeze surrounded me.

I understood that showing the world how great your life is doesn't require an album of photos; instead, it requires you to feel magnificent from the inside, "that your life is genuinely phenomenal in every way."

Having gratitude for everything that you own is an exceptional feeling which relieves you from the shackles of the "Craving for More factor".

The next thing I did was to let go of all the anxieties, tension, grudges, and overdose of comparisons to slide away. It was time for a detox, and it was the time much needed for the inner purification of my soul. So I said goodbye to all the hurt feelings I received from my Ex. I said goodbye to all those relationships where others did not equally respect me. I said "No" to any more compromises in my life.

As from now on, It was MY LIFE ON MY TERMS.

Left behind the socio-cultural taboos, what women should or shouldn't do.

I began smiling a lot more than ever before. Do you know what a miraculous medicine smile is?

Well, what happened next was because of this "Smile".

I was walking through the seashore when my eyes struck on a kitesurfer. The man was surfing impeccably, and I got my eyes glued to his every jump and bumps. He was too far, and I couldn't see his face, but his skill spellbound me. So I too decided to go for the same and feel the sea a little more and have more fun as he was doing.

But unfortunately, I was not allowed because I didn't know how to swim correctly to surf, got a big no. I insisted on paying extra for training and having a personal trainer by my side, but the owner couldn't afford the risk, as no personal trainer was available. While I was discussing all this with the owner of the surfing boats, the man ( the excellent sufferer) just landed. He had his time, so came to return. He stopped to listen to our conversation. Then, understanding my urge and excitement to surf, he said, "let me be your trainer". He smiled at me, and I smiled back at him.

We surfed like we were dancing to the tunes of the waves. I fell a couple of times, but he was there to hold me. When we finally came out of the sea, he asked me for a dinner date. At first, I was perplexed, but I had said no to judgements and captivated cultural stigmas, and I said Yes.

It was just a Date, and we became friends forever.