FML

I thought about writing a big fancy intro or something really clever, but fuck it. You will either read it and be entertained or click on the next story. As I sat on my couch I thought to myself "how the hell did I get here?". Have you ever had that moment? It's not a midlife crisis or a mental breakdown. I remember being 18, artistic, energetic, free thinking and unstoppable. Life loves to give you zig zags and "Oh shits!" that puts one in the current situation. I had the dream of being a creative artist and animator and yet here I am an occupational therapist. Don't get me wrong. I am honored and humbled to be able to help others, but deep down that's not who I am. It's who I thought people wanted me to be. Now that my son is off to college and I am an empty nester I am doing the unthinkable. I am finally going to be who I dreamed of being without holding back. Most of you are thinking... WTF? I totally get it. Why would I go back to school after getting a master's degree and having job security? By the way when I went to school to be an occupational therapist I was 35 and it was a master degree program. If you decide to go that path it's now a doctorate. If you know the names Jay Shetty and Vishen Lakhiani then you understand why I'm doing this. If you have no clue who the hell those people are the idea is do what makes you happy and you'll make money. I highly recommend their podcasts by the way. Lots of insights and a-ha moments. I realized that creating is what makes me happy and animation. I could spend all day just creating and crafting. I've actually have begun painting in oils. Do I have any idea of what I'm doing? Absolutely not, but I'm figuring it out and Youtube is great with lots of how to videos.

I not only want to reinvent myself but do it without fear of failure. That's the big take away. Most of us dream of being able to do what we want once we exit high school, however, you think one thing and your parents think another. Then next thing you know you're punching the 9 to 5 clock instead of living out your dream life. I have been doing that for over 30 years and I'm no happier. Certainly no healthier, but that's for another day. Today I am going to apply to an online art school and do it. I invite you to come with me on this journey of a new life and the bumps along the way. The only way to grow is to hit those bumps and who knows you may get inspired to reinvent yourself or laugh your ass off at my journey. Either way welcome!