Dandelion Wishes

A relationship is not a box that you build and then invite someone to "participate/live" in, with you. A relationship is something that didn't exist in any way, shape or form until that person, who is in it with you, showed up. It is something that grows out of the connection you feel with this specific individual. It is not a blueprint used to build a house, it is instead, the raw materials scattered everywhere and it is the time and effort it takes to turn all of those things into something strong and weatherproof. You cannot invite someone into your life with even the thought of them being the missing component to the relationship you desire. By doing so, you miss the point. You are more concerned with filling a void in your own life, than opening your eyes to the truth of who they are. Their unique purpose in your life goes way beyond your need to find a girlfriend or boyfriend just to fill the role that would provide you with a relationship.

When I say I am not relationship material, what I'm saying is I am not an easy to assemble, do-it-yourself, abracadabra kinda woman. I am the key that almost fits, the door that doesn't open easily. I am everything that made you ever question if you were ready for a relationship. Don't snap your fingers expecting me to jump. I will follow your lead just long enough to understand where you're going. I will participate to the extent i enjoy what you're doing. I will show up and I will be consistent. My accommodating spirit will have you believing I am here to be your girlfriend and eventually your wife, because the void in your heart is shaped like a woman. It is soft and nurturing. It is inviting and supportive. It is gentle and submissive. It is everything I am. Except I am not here to be your girlfriend. I am here to be myself. To represent myself. To exist in my own space. I don't belong to you. I carry the responsibility of my own existence. I let you be yourself, free to be and become on your own terms. See, from the beginning, you imagined how I would fit into your life. All along I've imagined how it would feel to just freely exist in this space with you. I put no expectations on you. I wanted you to just show me who you are. There's no box big enough to contain all the possibilities of what we could become if we could just let things grow without the need to prune them into tiny little bonsai trees to decorate the tiny little spaces dedicated to these tiny little parts of who we are. We are expansive, ever stretching and unwinding and growing and the seeds of change within us require the breeze and the open air and the sunshine to release and blow and shift us into new and different directions. Never ever limit the possibilities of who you are. Give space and freedom to all the potential that lies within your quivering stem. You are a dandelion bursting forth with millions of soft, feathery parts and pieces. Watch me as I breath gently on your tender blossom, and know that as I do my only wish is that you, "grow". I don't mind where you land. I'm just here to encourage your growth and be a witness to the process. Thank you for allowing me to join you here. Thank you for letting me be who I am, as I allow and give you the same freedom to be exactly who you are.