Aware of this thorn in my ass.

Towers, obstacles, trenches, problemas, whatever you may feel the need to call them. They all share a common theme “a thorn in the ass”. Something that has the capacity to bring you pain, fear,misery, and some kind of negative feeling, well usually. And as you muster the strength to pull this monstrosity from within your flesh, wherever this pain is it can also bring courage, determination, and finally relief. On the other hand fear can definitely overcome all and cause u to feel betrayal, resentment, and phobias. I strongly believe two emotions actually exist in this universe that is love and fear. Every other emotion are simply symptoms of these two. My theory is our complex human persona, our state of being you might say. Cannot do nothing more but to complicate things. Humans tend to stay in this sea of complications till death, unless an awakening takes place in their life. I know this word is thrown around in such away it gets confusing as to what it is. I am here to tell you it is what you believe it to be. To myself I believe it to be a clear awareness of self and it’s relationship to everything and every one. Looking at the big picture and realizing how simple things really can be and how you have every tool you will ever need to overcome all, within you. My truth sounded so complicated, you can see where my place in my awakening is. The only thing that seperates us is perspective “ My bad” may not be on the same scale as “your bad”. It awakes you to feel connection as a whole. Like the emotions that come when you initially get that thorn in your ass as to the emotions when you have to pull it and the relief after. All connects, in this perfect balance that we tend to overlook and take for granted. Our body, our vessel for example, functions in the most intricate tedious way and we do not have to be conciously aware to make it live, such as breathing. This awareness gives you the power to reflect on self, thus realizing everything and anything about you. Learning to have absolute unconditional love for you. One of the steps I took to change my life was a New Years resolution. A New Years resolution I will never forget and was the beginning to this path I have been longing to place my feet on, but did not know it even existed for me. That resolution was to stop talking shit to myself and if I did by accident replace it right away with something positive as soon as you became aware. It was enough to make shit start to look better for the situation I was in at the time. That was enough proof to spark that I was important enough to talk to me right. Talk to me from a place of compassion, love, and forgiveness. Omg forgiveness for self is so important. Some other human could have done the worst thing possible, and I would have the capacity to forgive them , but never felt worthy of forgiveness for myself. I still to this day struggle with this. I do know for a fact and nothing can ever take this away is I am worthy, so all I got to do is remember that everything else will fall into place, after I remember that. So if I can give advice to anyone about starting their path to self love. I would simply ask if they knew if they were worthy. If the answer was NO my advice would be to find it. That’s it.