Sad Beautiful Tragic

it started in high school the moment I saw your face when we met on our very first blind date and it was like I found my saving grace.

Friends break up, friends get married but luckily I found my prince harry.

We walked down the aisle and our whole town came and our mama's cried.

you said I do and I did too.

but little did I know we were dancing with our hands tied that is until I learned you had a girl on the side.

I wanted to be with you so I let it slide but then you came to me with a sigh saying annie we gave it our best try.

The cheater leaving the cheatee even after she stayed despite ALL of the lies, well I'll just say it came as one hell of a surprise.

Years go by and rumors fly and she's STILL so mad she could die.


I saw your beautiful face at what used to be our secret place where we had our first date sitting there with HER My ex best friend stace.

My wine glass shattered on the white cloth from the beat of my heart just from seeing the two of you happy as larks

The memory scars from our past came pouring down on me.

after all this time I thought I was clean but I realized in that moment I still had you all over me I couldn't wash you off my skin like the blood red merlot I spilled on my little white dress.

You stained me like the burning red color of a bleeding heart.

I sit in the restaurant scathing right where you left me at age 23.

Now I breathe flames each time I talk telling anyone who will listen all love ever does is bend and break and leave you screaming FUCK.

Because of you I have an imaginary shield around me that no one's ever really gotten through i wait for someone to finally break me free but they never do.

I want someone to need me is that so bad? I want to break free from the madness but now because of you it's all I have.

I didn't have it in myself to go with grace and so now I'm a mad woman and it's written all over my face and theres NOTHING like a mad woman with a cheshire cat smile.


I leave the restaurant with my cheshire cat smile like the joker.

I'm sitting at a red light both hands on the wheel talking to myself so much runnin' through my mind.

I just want to be free of the need of needing you to need me.

I screamed so loud but no one heard a thing

As I sat at the red light the carrie underwood song two black cadillacs comes on the radio and I hear the chorus " threw a handful of dirt into the deep ground he's not the only one who has a secret to hide bye bye "

And the first thought that came to my mind was

" no body no crime "

at that very second a car pulls up right next to me at the red light as I look to my right and it was HIM. it was YOU. I couldn't believe it.

It was like fate was testing me.

I can't think straight all I could see in my head is merlot blood red.

And so I follow you, I follow you home. Our 4 headlights shine through the sleepless night
and i know this slope and path I'm going down is reckless but I can't help it he's just so god damn treacherous.

I arrive at my destination.

At a crossroads.

I look inside myself
and see my heart is black.

I smile that cheshire cat smile and descend into black.

EPILOGUE


And the preacher says he was a good man and that this tragic event must have been part of god's plan but I'm thinking in my head if only he had been a better man.


Me and HER lock eye to eye as I sat in the aisle and I flash her my wretched cheshire cat smile.


SHE makes rumors fly telling everyone about our " strange " eye to eye and how she thinks I did it but she just can't prove it.

Now they say what a shame she went mad but she'll always maintain in her head that harry made her like that.