The Raging Bull

Toro, toro, toro! Oh, I feel those irons stabbing me in the back right between the shoulder blades, enraging me. I am always fighting. Fighting myself, my history, my present, and my future. Am I a Taurus or just a bull?

It is said Taurus is ruled by Venus, the planet of love, attraction, beauty, and creativity. So perhaps I am a Taurus and not just a stubborn bull. I find the most satisfaction in creative endeavors like painting, baking, and ceramics. I constantly find myself in patterns of attraction to people, places, or objects. I want to surround myself with love and beauty, rearranging my living spaces all the time to enhance beauty and practicality. Once something becomes my focus it is like a mini obsession, but oddly enough passes very quickly. I don’t hold onto anything particularly tightly; not people, places, things, or beliefs. In this respect perhaps I am nothing like Taurus who doesn’t like sudden changes and is unable to let go of people and emotions.

Taurus is said to be stable and conservative. Their strengths shine through in reliability, patience, practicality, devotion, and responsibility. I may be a child of the earth, firmly grounded, however, patience has never been my strong suit. When I want something, I want it right now. I can see things from a grounded and rational perspective, but am I stable? Honestly, who is? I love stability around me, and in the people, who support me, but I don’t personally find myself stable. I am in constant flux. I actually enjoy chaos, pressure, and challenges. It often seems if my life isn’t chaotic enough, I’ll create chaos and challenges to overcome. That’s a little weird, right? Taurus is supposed to hate complications or insecurity, yet I go after those things, with a stubborn, uncompromising passion. Which actually is a defining characteristic of Taurus. Their stubbornness. And I have that in spades.

I do enjoy hard work, and I feel my best when I must constantly work hard. This is a hallmark of Taurus – a sign that will do whatever it takes to complete a task. Maybe this is stubbornness, maybe it’s commitment. Every ‘weakness’ can be turned into a ‘strength’ depending on circumstance.

I work because I love being busy and seeing the fruits of my labour. Taurus is supposed to love money and wealth, and apparently be able to easily make money. I wholly missed out on those qualities. I do like to feel financially secure, but I haven’t chosen professions that would bring me a great deal of wealth. Kind of the opposite unfortunately for me. I have chosen love over money. Surrounded by family, friends, and a supportive home and work life, I feel rich. Would I like more money, sure. But I would probably just spend it. I have a hard time holding on to money when it comes my way. Perhaps because I love to surround myself with beautiful things. That throws the practicality personality aspect out the window. I see practicality as saving and planning for the future. I think about the future, but only tangentially.

Taurus is said to be sensual and tactile, with touch and taste the most important of the sense to them. I am a Taurus through and through in this regard. I love baking and sweets. Good food is important to me. What is life if the things you eat are not enjoyed? Food should be an experience, not just for sustenance.

It’s often joked that I am a crow – attracted to shiny things. I love unusual and beautiful objects, and soft fabrics which I can wrap myself in, cocooning. Touch is important to me. I have been with fewer hugs these days, and I can feel it in my soul. Connection with others on a mental level is fine, but there needs to be some physicality, or it can feel empty to me.

So, am I a Taurus? Do I believe that the stars, sun, moon, and planets play a role in who I am as a person, and how my lift will play out? There are crazier truths, myths, and beliefs than this. Anything is possible.

There is a Greek story related to Taurus – It was said there was a large and powerful bull that rampaged a village. It was emotional, stubborn, and would not yield. It wasn’t until the goddess Persephone came to the earth and taught the bull to control its emotions and use its strength wisely that the village found peace. This resonated the most with me about Taurus and could in fact represent me. I do fight constantly, and I am emotional and stubborn. But over time, and through the care and patience of others, I have and will continue to learn to use my strength and emotions wisely, in service of myself and others, rather than wildly and uncontrollably.