Patching the present cracks

After months of trying, I was finally eligible to time travel. Time travelling is so simple yet so expensive. I had been working my ass off for months just to get a chance. I also had to study the rules of time travelling and I had to pass a strict interview, but I think it was all worth it.

When time travel became ‘a thing’, I thought it was kind of stupid because it didn’t make sense to me that someone would want to go back to the past to replay memories. But it also didn’t make sense that someone would want to know their future as if their life was a movie and someone spoiled it to them, which happens to be something that happened to me almost two years ago, and the reason why it is necessary for me to time travel to the past.

So, almost two years ago, a friend of mine talked to me about a really gifted psychic in my town, she did tarot readings. One day, I was curious to see what she had to say, so I went to get a tarot reading from this reputable psychic. I thought I would ask her whether my career choice was the correct one or not, but she ended up revealing something I did not want to know, in fact, something I feel I was not supposed to know. That afternoon she revealed to me the person I was going to marry. My first thought was "NO!", but then, she began to explain to me how our souls had made a contract before coming to Earth and that there were lessons we had to learn. Not only that, but she also convinced me when she said, "I know that your first thought was "NO!", but think about it, you are not meant to be with this person at this moment, if you had liked the idea it would mean that this was probably not going to happen. I can also see that your union with this person is far away, you both still have to go through a lot of stuff before you can finally be together." In other words, she told me that the wedding is in the distant future, that is why I was so disgusted with the idea of marrying that person. But she also told me I would be moving to a different country, and at first I thought that was not going to happen, but a year later I got a job in a foreign country, so I moved there.

I know it is prohibited to change the past, but no one will know I did this, and nothing will change in the present moment, except for my knowledge for the future. I am doing this because against all odds, I met someone six months ago who makes me the happiest person in the world. And I can’t help but think that I will end up marrying someone else. It is not fair to know that we will eventually be apart when, at the moment, he is the only one for me. Anyway, I plan to go back in time and leave a note for myself that says: “don’t go to that psychic”, knowing me the way I know me, I will think it is a sign, and I will cancel the appointment.

I got ready for time travel, I had to go to a station where a huge beam of light would teleport me to the exact moment and time I want. In the station, a lady reviewed the laws of time travelling with me and told me that I would be being watched at all times and that if they saw something illegal, I would be taken back immediately, and, obviously, I would get banned from time travelling ever again. Her speech kind of scared me, and having to sign the terms and conditions made me question if all of this was worth it, but I had a plan, and I was willing to stick to it.

I was back in time, to that 23rd of July. I had appeared in my house's living room. I had the note in between my fingers. It was 12.03, and I knew I was out and about at that moment, so that is why I chose to teleport inside of my house. I went to my cat’s bedroom and she was sleeping in her little bed, I caressed her and pretended I was fixing her collar, but I was actually attaching the note to it. Obviously, the motive that I gave in order to time travel was that I lost my cat and I wanted to spend a little bit of time with her. It was a lie, and I know it's a low move, but I really needed to do this. I spent around thirty minutes playing with her and making sure the note would not fall, and then went back to the present.

Little did I know the huge mistake I had made. Turns out my whole present had changed, but I still had the memories of my past present. The life I was living, the man I wanted to change my past for, all gone. Apparently, I had cancelled the appointment with the psychic as expected, which resulted in me taking a different career choice. Therefore, I never moved to the foreign country where I met the person I am currently in love with. And, ironically, I am in a relationship with the guy I was told I would marry. Now I am trapped in an unhappy relationship, missing someone who does not know of my existence, plus lives hundreds of thousands of kilometres away from me.

I regret changing the past, I feel as if even if I leave the unhappy relationship or even if I move to that country, I will never be happy, I will never find peace. I messed up with time, and that is unforgivable.