Gemini

Rest your eyes upon her blackened billows

Beautifully adorned with diamond dust.

Her golden sphere of splendor

At its center

Walk with me.

To the third house on the right

On a journey through the heavens

To unlock my most genuine treasure.

The Gem in me

I the Gemini

Patrice Bishop

Do you ever gazed at the night sky, wondering what made it so beautiful? I do every day as I am fascinated by the heavens. The stars, the clouds, and most of all, the sun and moon have held my mind captive since I was young, even into adulthood, that mystical tapestry that magically transforms after sundown.

I was born on June 2 in 79. That would make me a Gemini, which for years, I did not know what that meant. It was not until I began studying myself to find a reason to keep living when I discovered numerology. I purchased a book written by Faith Javane and Dusty Bunker. In this book, my birthday is the determining factor for the experiences I will face to learn all that life has to offer an individual born under the heavenly influence of a particular sign and its constellation.

In this text, my birthday represents the lessons that I must learn in this lifetime and is most significant in my career choice. After performing the calculations according to the writers' instructions, I found out my life lesson number is 7. In this book, it states that I am here to use and develop my mind. All the characteristics stated in this writing are absolutely on point. It says that I would be a great writer, and I love writing, amongst other things. It also says I love my family but need to withdraw for balance. I found something that made me love myself so much more.

I must admit that all that this book said is the true me, the Gem in me.

This correlation caused a change in my thoughts. Initially, I was only interested in the subject as a hobby until after years of self-observation. I learned that my zodiac sign has a more profound influence on my life than I imagined. My most tumultuous memories are the result of an internal perception of myself based on outsiders' opinions. Unaware of my star sign's influence, I mistook sex for love, and it caused a lot of pain. My heart has never fully recovered. My pain has been so intense that it scared me to the core.

As a Gemini parent, parenting through my pain has been a multi-dimensional, painstaking roller coaster of emotion. At one point in their younger years, my children looked up to me. I was like a modern-day "SHERO" to them. I have fought this foul justice system for over 20 years to protect my children from the vile and despicable abuses of this system design for little black children. Consequently, because of all zodiacs' dual nature, particularly the lovers, most Geminis are misunderstood and perceived as "two-faced." Two faces are correct for those born as Gemini. One look is joy, and the other pain.

My children have said that they do not understand me one minute I love them, and the next I hate them. That is not true. I just passionately and fervently want my children to excel in all manner of greatness. Nevertheless, the truth behind the love-hate complex is not that Gemini love and then hates you. The problem is that Gemini loves you if you love them back. When you hurt or harm them, you meet the twin, and he is not pleasant. From my own experience, thoughts, and feelings, I concluded that a Gemini is a transgender soul trapped in a body assigned at birth with the mind of male and female energy.

Consequently, being born a Gemini mindset to a female organ, I was unaware of that sign's dualistic nature until I married and became a mother. However, the book, the power of birthday stars and symbols, written by Saffi Crawford and Geraldine Sullivan, says that I am devoted to my home and family. However, I still need to be free to be myself.

"Bravo, Bravo!" Yes! Finally, someone can explain what I have been trying to say since um. FOREVER! This book has become a BIBLE in my home. But seriously, this is true; my children were all gifts that I have protected with my life. I remember in Danville, and I was able to fight off eight police officers to defend my son and daughters. I ran into the back bedroom, shut the door, and then became a human wedge that kept them at bay. They pushed and pushed, but I remained wedged until the furniture moved. I lost my balance, allowing them to gain entry. They entered with beams and burners pointed at me in the dark bathroom of my daughter's bedroom. It was then that I surrendered. The strength that I felt was the most excellent form of parental adrenaline. I was focused and determined to keep my children safe due to my husband's absence in the home at that time. It was like a man was born in me out of necessity and safety for my family.

As a Gemini with a family, I often refer to how my granddad raised me and how he treated my grandma. He was the pillar of manliness that I saw as a young woman. He taught me how to be a man and survive and support a wife and kids and be kind and generous to others but always defend yourself and never buy love or friendship. Valuable principles for growth. I have broken so many generational curses in my family using the dualist persona of the twin lovers. I may not be where others feel I should be in my life right now, but I am right on time and in no rush, according to the stars. It took me 30 years of parenting and living to get an opportunity to shine and show my Gemini mind at its best. Mind-body and soul redefined, as I began to embrace all the "flaws" that others seem so offended by; I mean, come on, get some skin! Speaking of my skin, I began to love every single part of my body decided to repair the damage of 8 children, years of abuse, and a failed marriage which was the turning point in my spirituality.

My heart became attached to the sun. I adore sunshine and nature. The experience of nature confirms the artistry of a great expert creator with a great sense of humor. I mean poison dart frogs and baboon buttocks? That is some hilarious power! I believe that sun rays cause an evolution in all things and that the stars are the dust of the sun and the souls of zodiacs, and I will continue to evolve into the lead I was destined to be.