My BDSM horror story update #2

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Also there is now a trigger warning on this post. If you're sensitive to abuse, sexual assault or BDSM this article is not for you. So let's get to this.

These exes are at it again. Also the girl I warned had found me again. I won't say much because I don't know how much I have permission to share here. Basically the girl I warned said she should have taken my warning and she filled me in as to what happened. Let's just say it all came screaming back. The mind games, the fights, the drama and the stupidity all came back. I knew I did the right thing in warning her and I will continue to do so.

Then it happened, the run in that I never wanted to happen. I knew I would probably have this run in but I didn't want it to especially not when I was grieving a loved one. I went to a littles party at a local club and I was already a little upset and in a bad mood. Then I walked in the event space and there was my exes. I made eye contact with him so I knew he saw me. Although, I don't know if he knew who I was because of my mask. The abuse I endured came back again I had a full panic attack. I am going to talk to my therapist about this, obviously. I didn't know what to do in this situation. Do I tell the people at the club? Do I go up to them and say something?

I ended up texting someone I knew could help me. Let's just call this person Sir, that will be easier. Sir told me to let it play out and I realized it was dumb to confront them. I just sat there not enjoying myself that much but trying so hard. I did meet some people and there were highlights but all I could do was feel these negative feelings that they made me feel while we were together. I felt ashamed of who I was as a little and I felt stupid for them being able to make me feel this way. I wasn't able to get into little space which sucked but I know now I might need to prep myself for seeing them next time. I hated them for what they did to me. Like I said earlier I am in therapy and this will be dealt with as soon as possible.

I may never know how deeply they hurt me and I may not know how many people they hurt but I do know that I don't want them to do this to someone else. I know I may not be able to tell everyone but I will try to warn who I can about them. The problem is if I do say anything about them to anyone and then the person lets the couple know I said something that the couple (or just the guy) will make stuff up about me. I know this for a fact, I've seen this happen before. They lie about people to make it sound like they are the victims, instead of the victims being the victims.

They did get their claws in another young lady. Of course, she has one of those "don't message me unless you have messaged this person" warnings on her profile. I also didn't care because I would rather break one of those rules and get ignored than to do nothing. If I don't do anything it wouldn't sit right with me especially if something was to happen to the girl. I will do everything I can to protect another girl.

As I am writing this, I have sage burning to clear the air and to calm my anxiety. I will always work to educate you guys and gals. I will also tell my stories.